What Would Bear Do?

Long RANTS for reading pleasures! =B

2010-11-23T23:17:00.003+08:00

I'm in so much pain, yes I indeed am! This is what i get for eating belachan/sambal pedas-pedas suddenly after weeks of not eating 'em. Yes, I do love spicy food. I have stomach of steel but having not eaten it for awhile does give you the blow for awhile! =B To clarify how pedas it was, just smelling the aroma of the sambal can have your eyes watery! LOL! To scent > To feel, how is that possible! I'm not too sure myself! ;P

My atm card p/s is still unknown. It got eaten by the machine too, but got it back yesterday with fiz. Yeah, I ditched school. So every time I jalan, I'll try to remember every possible p/s. I'm screwd & broke! How ironic aye, i finally have money but I couldn't take em out. Once you'll drive $50 is not enough for the whole month anymore. Minyak + Easi pun sudah menyusahkan. When one day I do have bills, god! I'll suffer more. Again, how ironic. The more you are independent, the more likely money is spent on insurance, loan, installments & whatnot. So this is becoming of adults.

I really have no particular topic in my mind. Just speaking my mind. Its almost Wednesday & yet again I aint going school. What point is it, having our attendance taken when there are no classes this week. -.-' I need to apply a gym soon. I found a decent place fiz told me. Its near school & midway point from my far far away home. Why couldn't I've known this place sooner, wait I forgot the name of the gym! =O hahaha! Fitness space kh. I'm in holiday mode btw. But I spoit it by watching almost all my sitcom in 1 go, namely big bang theory, lie to me & leverage.

Game Section. You might not understand what I'm saying. Be warn! =P

Though, I did buy another new game from my other $50 from ze brother. He-he-he! -.-' Guilty as charge. I could of used that money but it wasn't in my hand & beside my brother can benefit from the game too! I bought it since I want a strategic game, its not bad. Dynasty Warrior 6 Empire, is the game. Not bad, but a little disappointing, still an addict though so all good! Oh COD black ops is being a bitch for its online mode! 1 bar is all i can get in this far away distant connection! MENYAMAL KU! xD But BRAVO for the story mode! It was fantastic! So far all COD modern warfare 1 & 2, & COD ww2 with black ops 'story line' is just fabulous! But personally I still like COD MW by 'Infinity Ward' FAB controls & smooth game play. Though 'Treyarch' the maker for the other 2 COD have cool features like zombie mode! So I really can't complain!

LOL, sorry if you got bored before this paragraph about games! =B But mana tau, you readers might be gamers! My social life is getting stable. I think. Though to some people, who I owe their attention. I apologize. I might be either procrastinating or have nothing to say or expired cridet which happen too often! =O My cridet risen to approx $35. Yeah, I really don't contact anyone. I recharge jua so it wouldn't be expired! =X But still can't beat my record of having $150 dulu! =O

Anyhoo, I'll be out now dreaming/reminescing of..... no one! How sad! HAHAHHA! Night ya'll!

Ahoy Mates

2010-11-21T22:31:00.003+08:00

Yes, has been awhile. Apology for the lack of update. Yes, I'm busy with life & its treating me quite well. Bracing them. =) Alot have happen. A.L.O.T.

Anyhoo, today alone was way fun.

> Went to the Time Square mall. Jimah, Ira & Fiz was present. Met up with the 'Music Crib' show case thingy, yeah I know them pretty well. So I suggested that Fiz should play something. So it later became a jamming session. Thanks to Danish, Hatta, B-boy & Bryan. Mind you, it was public & we were at the centre, Many passerby watched them jam. Approx 1.30hr time spent.

Last last minute, ask permission to play Rock Band. It was fun but didn't play that long. Us 4 played, taking turns. Its been awhile playing it. Ira is natural in playing the drums, I still got it at the guitar though its only medium! =P The annoying part was that, Jimah sudden2 changes the song since she wants to restart or tukar lagu! -.-' Hazwan arrived then we were off to...

> UBD, since the girls are having friendly rugby match. Ptek, Bandar Blacks, Knights, Sharks. Lurus ka tue? It was GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR~ btw! HAHAHAHAHA! Siok lh meliat jua. Also roam around the netball matches. Alot of ptek were there namely, Rojie, Boo, Ah-boo, Hazwan with the girl gengs. ;P It was fun actually. Happy Birthday to Sheila J. Is that correct. =P 5ish to 6.50ish. Oh the parking was effing annoying, once getting there & trying to go back. So Jimah drove. HAHAHA Biar ya!

> Latur antar Rojie & Hazwan home, yes we were cramped in one car btw! xD Then we went to Tanjong Bunot Hua Ho. They had DQ ice cream while I, the hot dog, which btw was delightful & made me wanting more. Instead I finished Jims ice cream. hahaha & now selesma sikit.

> Rumah Jims. Chill jab, main with hamsters. Chill, watched 'punked', shill. Drg main guitar & sing along. Big 2 then baliks. I came home 10ish.

Yeah, pretty much very detailed & a fab sunday. =B I loike, I loike! My detail rantings comes once in awhile so bare with me. Ano, I'm super tired. I want to play game but too damn tired. zzzzZZZZ. I'll hit the sack soon..... I guess! bwahahahaha.

*Ahem

2010-11-11T22:03:00.002+08:00

-Ano, my throat, its been killing me! Every-time I swallow it hurts like *tut! Not to forget the god awful ulsers I have at the bottom of the lips. It is not pleasant I tell ya.

-I have cravings for Happy Dean Nasi ayam, Frattinis 18 inch pizza or Jollibee's chessy fries. BUT I'm broke & of these mouth & throat problems.

-My atm card which I was suppose to have already is a hassle just to get since waiting it to be taken since last 2 weeks & now the bank have something going on making it impossible to get my card.

-Oh, I also have a pending msg to reply since yesterday. Not that I don't want to reply. But I'm just having difficulties on what to say. Some feelings never seem to fade away, esp the painful ones.

-College have been a hassle too. I'm not enjoying it. Home seems to be my only sanction now. I love being alone & at home at times, though it can be too lonely at times.

-Currently waiting for 'Leverage' season 4 & 'Lie to me' season 3. I want to watch 'How I met your mother' season 1-current & currently watching 'Big Bang theory' at season 2. I missed 2 events of Arsenal matches. Or any other team for that matter.

-Have been playing PES 2011, but I lost faith in it since the Option file is not licensed yet! Its just so much duller. I want to play some strategic or online games.

-Oh not to forget that Zoro, the cat is now in the toilet. My brother put him there so it will roam around & get use of our presence. But akward part is to have eyes in the toilet when I'm showering or doing numbers in the toilet. -.-' THE *TUT annoying part is that it shits everywhere! I don't consider it 'my' cat since it is *TUT lazy to clean itself, not obedient to shit at its litter box, & esp hate when it hiss or grin when we are there to take care of it. In my whole life, that is the most fucking scardiest cat in the whole fucking world for all I care! I want a new cat, or better yet a big giant hamster again. Fucking cat. There I just lost my temper. My sincere apology.

So yeah, pretty much my current situation. Bye folks. Hope y'all have a better time with your lives. =)

An adrenaline rush day it was.

2010-11-06T23:25:00.004+08:00

Sorry for my late tardi-ness. I have been dozing of every hour or so! Its the weekends, i'm hella tired but you know just don't want to waste my day just like that. So I took 4 naps since 6 now its 11.

Highlighted points.

-Classes was dull except socio & gp where we watched 'Modern Family' & Remember the titans half part. Fucking awesome movie so far.

-Skipped history yet again. Wonder what sir might say to me this time.

-Met a new girl, Bulat's cuzn apparently. Fatin Suhaili, a very sweet sweet girl! =B Oh & another girl, Mysharah. Lurus kh dude? =P Who happen to be fiz's girl. ;P Only a glimpse though. Sorry for the intrusion & surprise & stalking to the both of you! =O

-Ate lunch at excapade with ging; Syah, Danny, Rojie & myself with 2 other, Aziemah & Fatin. Apparently Ira has a "project" date!

-Later on an idea from syah suggesting of her wanting to drive! I was like =O but I trust syah. So Jims suggested trial rah sekolah yayasan.

-Arrived; Syah took the wheel! We were like "O-MG SYAH"! I froze, my heart pumped, I sweat! We were all cramp in my car, all 6 of us! Next in line was Rojie, I doubted her driving but it turns to be a cruise ride so its all good. ;P

Danny drove ziemah's ride, while rozie & I was behind them. Went up hill to a dead end. ALL OF A SUDDEN! POLICE CAR ADA! Apparently checking us out! Rozie lambai-ed at them! I DIED INSIDE! LMAO! Danny & Ziemah switched places! We were racing back to yayasan school! HAHHAHAHA! Talking about 'adrenaline rush'! I got it!

-I was fcuking sweating after that ordeal! But we weren't stopping just yet. After, jim's suggested Fatin should try it. I was reluctant at first. Since it will be her first! But I have faith in her, lets say I have this intuition that she'll do well. So yes, briefly taught her basics. & guess what she did very well. =)

-Lastly Danny & Syah drove again. Danny was a natural driver, not surprised. lol! Syah did better 2nd round but her steering still off! xD Nanti th lagi syah! ;B

-Send them 3 home. Came home, liat series dozed off, mandi kn kuching then dozed off. Cont series then dozed off, kn liat bola but I dozed off, now almost 12 ish going to check bola games then tidur! xD

I had fun today. =)

Something's Missing, & I don't know how to fix it.

2010-11-03T21:40:00.007+08:00

Title 'quoted' by John Mayer's song. =)

Its always a certain someone that we are missing, is it not? Loneliness. Don't worry I'm not in my 'emo' mode. I'm really thankful of wonderful people surrounding me. Near or far, people who touched my life. Don't worry this is not an appreciation mode speech either. I'm just being random.

Today, I skipped 1 class + another 1 since its a relief tchr, 1 no class & 1 'movie' class + my Ps. So do the math, I didn't study today! =O Lazy is one thing. Yesterday was quite similar but I didn't escape any + we watched series 'Modern Family' which is to say, a rather interesting series.

Oh, I just wanted to post some pictures from Ziemah's crib last time & some other random shots in college. =)

A pleasant-pleasant evening that was. Now for college shots.

Hand few of people I see & hangout at most days. =) 'What was your first impression of me?' Questions was asked all over the group! =P

Oh, I've just realized that my phone's camera is fast ever since I update the software! Atulh rajin ambil gambar compare to last time! HURAAAY! =P

Its so un-developed.

2010-10-31T22:10:00.002+08:00

Hello folks. Yes, a pretty much late update. Weekend was fun, could of been a blast BUT my mood is 'GONE'! I'm not the only one feeling like this, I hope. I feel so 'BORED' in school, at home, in the car, otw to somewhere, waiting for something, trying to achieve something. F-ucking bored. I feel very 'empty' to. I want to fly..... literally, I want to be in a fantasy, I want to be in a storybook where everything is 'HAPPILY FUCKING EVER AFTER'!

Dull, everything is dull now! I have nothing to look forward too. Inspiration are not there anymore. Who am I trying to impress anyway? I lost faith in that department already. Don't Eff-ing care!

But as I was saying earlier. I did have a pretty decent weekend. Thanks to Saturday playing rugby with them friends & to the late late movie night at Aziemah's crib. =) With pizza take outs, thriller movie with heavy lightning flashing in the dark cold room, cold comfy pillow & blankets, short naps & companions around you was awesome. No doubt about that. Oh & the hamsters that Ira almost crippled! HAHAHA

Only then did I enjoyed myself but really something else was still missing. My mood, my mojo? HAHAHAH Bh bh! I'm done bitching! I hope tomorrow is a great day. =) See most of you readers tomorrow, yes~ Give me a 'smile' will you, it'll make me so much better. For the one's I haven't seen or spoken to in ages. Just give me a e-smile! HAHAHAH =P

CHATBOX MSGS:

MG! O-'MG'! hahahah! I knew your still lurking around! ;P Yeah, I knew what came out.... unfortunately not to my liking. We didn't even finish our 'mussolini' part. We only manage till Hitler & Stalin (which btw I was so looking forward too) Lucky, MG sudah abis the syllabus. Its not our teacher's fault btw. Its just that kami banyak tukar tcher. -.-'

Oh & I always had a feeling that you were still around in this blog! ;3 I miss you too! =) Been a very long while has it!

Lynniefag: HAHAHAHHA! Sama th, mata kami ah! I pretty much lost alot of my sight because of my dark room & glaring light from the laptop! -.-'

Ira: Tayang! WHAT YOU TALKING ABOUT! I've been interested in drums since I was a fetus! HAHAHHA! =# But yeah minat. I still play but still a newbie! =O Oh & you were already my cookie since last last long long time ago! =B Plus your extra sweet this Saturday! Apaan 'lame' jua eyh! HAHAHA

Hey-O

2010-10-29T00:26:00.004+08:00

Its 12-O-Clock & I'm just bleeding my ears from awesome songs! From Black Sabbath, Incubus - Anna Molly, to System of a down, to avenged sevenfold. You get the picture.

AWESOME! Just AWESOME! 1 of my pending song which I would LOVE to cover! Drum cover that is!

Oh & Salin is one of the best drummer girl I came across! Isn't she awesome! =O

This is an interesting one! Ice drums anyone! =O The ice drum set sounds so good! =O Im surprised! Loving the tom-tom beats! =)

Fuck yeah, this is my medicine for the moment. Fucking exam was a disappointment! Music is all I've got now! Oh, its Friday & usually I have extra class since last month so I also slept early! BUT I have no extra class tomorrow & I guess it will be my first Firday day off for awhile! DO what I do BEST! Laze around! Bwahahahaha! Sleep in late! ;B

Man, I find peace at awesome or metal hard drum beats. Hearing Children Of Bodom & Lamb of gods is so perfect in my predicaments NOW! bwahahahah! I have not much to say but music now!

AH MOTHER FUHRER

2010-10-27T21:07:00.003+08:00

Yes, history AS is in another another 13 hours or so! -.-' & I ain't studying this very moment! I'm too freaked out I guess. Trying to relieve a lil stress nie, since 6 hours ago! -.-' MOTHER F.... O.o FUCK-er! I want COOKIES! Random much! Please can someone get me cookies! Screw that, please be my cookies so I can nibble on you! For them girls.... THANK YOU VERY MUCH!

BULLOKS! Sorry I've been MIA. I was constraining myself from ps3, any form of games but shit I STILL FAILED! As I have been watching Leverage season 2 & now 3 since Sunday! -.-' I'm so screwd!

Seth: I’m sorry I’ve been such an ass, okay. It’s just, you’re superior to me in so many ways. You’re better looking, you’re more popular, you’re stronger… and not just emotionally.
Summer: Seth, I’ll always look up to you. And not just because you’re taller than me.

You know, I find that quote from the girl very adorable! ;3 Oh & somehow, I can relate to this feeling of being an 'ass'. Not because I'm an ass but that I just envy you for being yourself & i can't do shit about it! Oh well, life's like that!

Its from tumblr btw. For some darn reason, a day before my exam. I have to go on to unknown tumblr sites & amuse myself. WHY TODAY? -.-'

& for some reason I can't change back the font & spacing, so bare with me!
I'll update me tumblr during the next month! ;P & maybe a twitter acc too! But for now! It all depends on tomorrow! After that! My AS is officially over & I can do all the SHIT i want!
OH OH! Today's highlight was listening to my old classic band which really, was a lost long favourite. & the best part was listening it with someone. None other than Ira. =) The band was btw 'Sheila on 7' LOADS LOADS of memories within these songs with my soul.
Last thing.
-Source Base - World War 1
-Italy & Germany unification
-Dictatorship of Stalin or Hitler. Pls no Mussolini.
-Russian revolution/ Bolsheviks

My targets for tomorrow!

Today, just like any other day but different.

2010-10-22T20:21:00.005+08:00

Agenda for today have been quite busy, compare to my other lazily Fridays. So I went to school early for once, the parking was so empty! I thought inda jadi pakah! I saw Azizi's ride sja! Bummer! Ziemah's car pun nada! Then Syah pun nada! Then si anu pun nada... then... Hahaha! My point being is that not alot of people attended.

I must say the topic was fairly too detailed! =O But we were presented with video's of Hitler's speech & whatnot! Wasn't that long, but jadi th! I also felt sorry when sir told us he didn't sleep all night since he was doing the powerpoint slides just for us! =/ Sikit lagi org tue! (just trying to make some people guilty, who didn't came) xD

-Went to jangsak membeli Nasi Katok as usual with danny. Tried the pulut panggang! MHHHHMMM~

-Balik liat 'vanity lair'! HAHAHAH! Face it! There are too much beautiful people! & I lovit! Final season though. *cough cough errr carry on...

-Friday prayer, which I tried to stay awake & had my head wobbly from sleepiness! HEY! In my defence I wasn't the only one! HAHAHA

-Baru limpang for 5 min! THEN mum suruh bangun kn bawa jalan our maid-man for our last jalan! Yeah, he is leaving tomorrow! He & I have bonded alot & he did alot to help my family! Most thing I can't forget is when he was there when my dad passed. He is after all our mengaji/religious teacher too who guided us.

I know he was here for a reason, when my father first hired him, 2 years ago! Its just faith to have him guide us during that horrid moment. I can't thank him enough.

-Anyhoo, nyebarang ke yayasan. Made my own bank account. Just waiting for the atm card! HEHEHE >;P Round-round bandar. Makan. Shopping. I bought new school shoes btw. =O You'll see it tomorrow I guess! =P

-So i had a delimma between buying toys at hua ho! 2 particular toys that is! HAHAHA I'm a nerd! I had my eyes on 1) Nerf gun or 2)Lightsaber! HAHAHHAHAHA NERD MUCH! Both of them cost $55+ BUT I bailed after 5 times of touching each toys! HHAHAHA

-We shopped for a long freaking time! I'm still tired now! Aite. I'll stop here!

Ps. Sorry my blog havent had pictures in awhile! Wait till I'm truly free from my AS! Which is in 6 more days! *GASSPSSS! Oh reminds me esuk liat bolaaa! A big match too! =PP

Laugh Out Loud = LOL

2010-10-21T22:49:00.002+08:00

I was intrigue by my recent chatbox comment by kiss! HAHAHAH! Sorry to keep you in suspence kissy! =P I'll tell you when the time is right! Next year kaa! HAHAHA! Ano, I'm quite sure I'm sober; from girls now! I have my AS to worry about! ESEH! But yeah, I'm trying to get over anyone in my head atm! Does not mean, that I won't talk to them fellow mates or not even flirt with them! =P I'm just like any other male, who likes to talk to women in my own ways. ;P & I don't flirt with women at most cases; 'That's just how I talk'. Smooth talker? HAHAHHA Prasan!

Oh, I have been in almost ALL my classes this week! Except 1 socio & 1 econs class! I deserve a pat on the back! Can someone do the honours! =P Oh & socio has been pretty interesting since yesterday. I think because;

1) Lynnie was finally in class with 2 other guest Kiss & Nabilah (the chinese look-alike girl) =P
2)Personal question about family & ourselfs follow of bullying of Kristin. =P
3)Today alone was fun due to the fact we talked about tcher's height! =O & I pretty much said something risky! LOL!

Oh, I did a highscore in the apple's game 'something bird' namanya at Syah's i-phone! Bangga ku I beat her record! But then she came back on top! -.-' This was yesterday btw. So I played it again today & FUCK I was few points away! I'll get it soon enough! >=O

Tomorrow ada History extra class again. For once I don't dread these extra classes on Friday esp if its history, I'm pretty sure that's where my interest lies! =) ESP with an extraordinary teacher like Sir.Herman.

Aite, thats my update for today! Last note, I also manage to complete season 1 of Leverage! Its an awesome awesome series! Being professional theives is looking too good for my career target next! HAHAHAHA Realistic-ly I want to either be a diplomat like my dad, or somewhere in public relations. I like traveling & interactions with foreigners. But my choice's are still open & tend to wonder..... so I'm not sure. Doing politics & business is another interest. I'm a nerd! HAHAHA well at least I'm planning for my future in a way. So its all good!

LOL! I guess I have too much thoughts for today! Good Night pepol!

Lets be happy together.

2010-10-19T21:00:00.006+08:00

-I would like to apologize again for the bird I've accidently hit. Guilty wah aku!

-I'm feeling a little more better both mind & heart! Thank you all.

-I've really got nothing much to say. This is just a short update.

-Had a convoy road trip with Hafiz to places today! & chilled at my house till 8pm, bru ia balik! Samseng sudah nie, akhir balik during school days! lol

- To any broken-hearted people, don't fret. In time, it'll pass. It'll be a challenge, trust me I know! I'm still healing from my father's traumatic passing till now. But I survive with friends, with faith, & every laughter I shared with every one of you.

-So take every sweet opportunity you have with them & cherish these very moments. Even the little things in life that makes you smile counts.

I bid thee a goodbye, for tonight & have a pleasent tomorrow morning.

Why like this one!

2010-10-18T16:56:00.003+08:00

Didn't realise that I haven't updated in days. How like this one maa! =O I also have no idea. I guess I was counting the days to my GP/History that I lost count of the days passing by! Ano, I did my GP AS tadi. I HOPE its in topic! I need this!

Highlights?

-I langgar a large bird tadi! ='( It was just standing there at the road. I thought it'll fly away. THEN BUUUK!! from the bumper to the windshield with my reaction mcm apa! But I felt bad though!

-Morning table gang made me hyper today, very unusual & 'yellow'! Victims: Big boss, I-man, Nisa & Jeeb.

-Finally belajar econs, which I was so blur but at the end faham! After 2 weeks ++ of not studying! But I bailed on socio. After that, teacher spotted me & cubit-ted me! =O All thanks to Ziemah & Safwan for attracting teacher's attention!

-The ging - hafizu & belle was in a very yellow topic again! Ranging from pms, to shlongs! HAHAHHA

-Went to 'Smart' bali chocos. Then chilled rah rmah syah. Danny, Ira, Rozie & myself cramp rah kreta baru si syah! =O But it was still fun!

-Exam GP! Like I said I hope its in topic! 700+ words. I think I got carried away!

-Oh ano, I was driving home, when I spotted her driving too. So I chased after her for awhile! (STALKER much) WAWAWA! Then ada tia si ah-boo (amal's man) driving laju behind me! 150 yawh! MATIE! Aku sudah 120 chasing her! HAHAHHA She is so cute with her fashionable glasses though! Shit, I find alot of girls gorgeous today! I guess I'm at that phrase again! HAHAHHA C'mon, does not hurt to compliment of a girl's undying beauty.

I feel like...

2010-10-14T19:27:00.003+08:00

LIKE SHIT! I feel so 'emo' lately. Emotion is just uncontrollable now. Its hard to be with someone you like, isn't it? To have comfort with another other. Well its just difficult. Not that I'm desperate nor want to be with someone. But I just want a person who understands & can be with me alone. Better yet, a female companion. I don't ask for much.

I know for an instant, a girl who means alot to me will make me 'smile' just like that, but at the same time makes me' down' just as fast since I know I just couldn't tell her.

Not only is that f-ed up.

I was driving home one afternoon, passed the cemetry. Tear's start coming out very, very slowly. I just realised that I miss my father so much! I thought of his presence, what he gave me, what he sacrifice for me, what he taught me, what he scolded me for. I really miss that. I try to make fun of myself at that particular time whilst still driving & all. But my feelings have just been bottled up for too too long. I couldn't stop. I learn to look at the bright side, being optimistic, being calm, being a fool from this endeavor. It helped.

After he passed, I felt so crushed. Too lonely, which actually gave me the courage to confess to a certain someone few months after. It made me feel at ease to have that someone in my life. We cared for each other, made each other smile. Though it was for awhile, it was worth remembering. I was reluctant to fall in love again after we were apart.

I guess all I need is that 'someone' who can make me smile, & not to screw up & actually be friends without her knowing that she means a whole lot to me. =)

Aite, I felt better. Sorry for being a lil too over the top mellow dramatic! & thanks to Bob Marley's - Don't worry be happy. Made me much much better. My blog prevails again in making my stress out at it.

Good luck y'all. Addiction to 311-Amber. Fucking beautiful song.

2010-10-12T19:33:00.002+08:00

Karma; it sucks. While last week is awesome, my start of this week is arrghh! I guess its only Monday blues. Fucking 'blues'.

I have very much indeed to report since I left. But I don't have the mood. Nothing made me happy today in school, cept from some people. A sick girl & a caring girl, made me smile today in school & only then.

I sound so 'emo'! HAHAHA! Its one of those days. It'll pass, I know of it. Oh & i'll be starting my AS esuk. I hope to ace both subjects. So i started reading my history. I hope, I hope I can get an 'A' for it!

Aite update complete. I'mma gonna play game jab! hahahah!

2010-10-10T17:28:00.001+08:00

I'll be back - Terminator

The day before & after

2010-10-07T21:24:00.005+08:00

My last final exam was yesterday, wednesday! I'M FREE! NOT! AS is right in the corner! I can taste it! ='( So I skipped school & just arrived for the cam in the afternoon! So what did happened yesterday? Let me tell you! =P

-Planning to go to Tasek for a jog. Instead went to Shah bandar. There was only 2 athletes, one lil one & a fat one! HAHAHHA! Guessed who? Hafiz, Rozie, Aziemah & myself! =D

-So before that chilled rah rumah hafiz since I'm not the bothered going home! FAR FAR away! Its really getting to me on how far I'm am FROM EVERYTHING. Esp when I drive nowdays!

-We went there at 5ish. 2 rounds of walking, a lil jogging, talking, pointing at monkeys. We're done! HAHAHA! I was just not that fit waaah! -.-' Sudah bagitau them athletes to go jog their ass off inda mau! Guilty jua ku tue!

-Played at the playground which was amusing. =B

-Went to T.Bunut Hua ho after that ke Easy Way. Chilled. Pokoknya siok lh.

-BALIK! Boring driving ke rumah!

TODAY, Thursday.

-I went to school, but skipped all classes since I went to UBD 2nd Memorial SOAS. It was an honour & very limited too! BUT! Wasn't so grand as I didn't see neither Sultan or Crown Prince.

-But I get to know a little more about a certain Dr. who was along side SOAS. Which was interesting. I did doze of for a min or 2. HAHAHAH! You know the state where your sitting straight & your head wobbling just to keep balance whilst asleep for a moment! That's my situation! HAHAHAH

Au, kami sikit sja.

Representative Katok th nie! =O

Syah, always the bestie! <3

The historians.

-Oh, my history mate there was non more than my fellow ging history members. Syah & Dan. We politicians/historians/lawyers like that! APAAAN! -.-' Oh, we also met coach Huzaimi, T.Mubarak, T.Kumar, T.Akmal! =P

-Then at touch of school, tarus balik, antar si soon to be bday boy danny!

-I was planning to go Shah Bandar again. But my head was spinning & my legs were a little tight from yesterday's jog. I don't mind going alone! BUT again, in my head! Jauh jua lagi ke sana tue! FUCK! Its annoying! Well Rozie intentionally going to come but bailed.

-So yeah, I decided to jog/cycle at the kampong. It turn out well until I started jogging. Where you feel an about-cramp feeling at the leg muscle! NO PLEASENT! So I bailed! & I wanted to play badminton with my mother BUT instead clean the lungkang sewer since its clogged! O.O NO MORE PLEASENT! BUT at least ada add on excercise! HAHAHHA

-With a fucking shovel, I dig all the way to the sewer! Sakit nah my right arm! My nose endure the stank! Then I went for another cycle around kampung while drizzling! Sejuk, nyaman but I think i'm quite damam now! HAHAHA

-My legs are very tight now & I can hardly walk. Since its been awhile with lack of stretches. I guess my jogging & swimming plan esuk akan saya batalkan! But hopefully main badminton again with mom.

I'm trying to be in shape again even midst of AS! Being in a healthy life style does not hurt! =B So far my week have been in full use & have lots of activities. Its awesome! Life for I know now is SWEET! & I thank them friends. =)

Have a great weekend everybody.

My Minions!

2010-10-05T21:33:00.004+08:00

Yesterday's Ordeal was, dare I say awesome. Went to Faiz's house & chill there & got high if you know what I mean. Hahahaha! It was freaking hilarious & funny too. But I won't say much. What happened there stays there since its just too awesome. I drove fucking sleepy for the 2nd time just this week!!=O

A similar thang happened too today, an awesome day with the minions & ging. =D Apparently these 2 days I attend all my classes because most of them jua nada class, so just show ma face! hahaha! Spend time with the ging/sekolah having a 'acoustic band' session in the canteen with the usual & Boo, Belle, Rozie, Muin! Siok lh siok.

Then later that afternoon we; My 2 tayang & wingman decided to have lunch & far off went to the beach! =O Had confrontations with some curiousity moments! HAHAHA! I like ticking of Ziemah with suspences! I'll write about the trip in Ziemah's ghetto mode, or try too!

Yaw, dawg. We drove down to gdg at city mahn! We ate our way thru' the hood near MD territorries at C.A Muhammad! & then geng, we meet'in Azrin & Azwan with our surprise Ira was close like that with em'! Eventually snooping in mall, doing errand & shitz. We chillin, our shits at secret recipe afta! My mahn, it was dope! (HAHAHAHHAHA)

The 2 shorties & tall dude! =P

Being Homeschool yaw!

We gangsta like that! >=P

We then exchange of cars ke sini ke sana yaw! Dawg, I got to say. Someone's ride was pimpin shits mahn~ It runs so smooth, that my head was popping crazy all day, know what I mean y'all! Cruise down the highway to berakas beach, its d' bomb thar at the time. Heat was making as high lyke shiz man! Vain-ing moment as gangsta we did! Like it was so awesome y'all! Overall, we cus'in, rap-pen, laughin the whole afternoon with our very own celebrity Ira MAA!

Ira our celebrity baby! =P

Ok ok.... I'll stop! HAHAHAHHA! That actually took me longer & is so much harder than I thought. GILA! This was influence by ziemah btw! Because she is ghetto like that! HAHAHAH My gp esuk & blog cani lagi! -.-' Pokoknya I had fun with the lovlies. =)

I'll leave with some pictures, thanks to si bulat for uploading in fb & last request! =)

Its Funkeh.

2010-10-03T20:12:00.002+08:00

Connection is very funkeh, I'm really funkeh, my life is funkeh, my love life is funkeh, my situation is funkeh. Mahn, I'm starting to hate being in my condition lately. I want to change, for the greater good. For myself. So I can gain my confidence. For all I remember I've been overwhealm with the littlest of things but not seem to overcome it. It makes me want to say 'Fuck, what's the matter with me' -Mental breakdown- HAHAHHA

I'll change, I will change this few upcoming month left till the new years. & when I do, I'll say 'Fuck yeah, in your face old me!' Just you see pe-pol! I will change!

I'm waiting for the big match now at 10. Arsenal vs Chelsea babay! I like both teams, but I want Arsenal to prevail! Anything can happen, so I'm not certain who will win! EEE-GADZ! Connection is so slow.

3 star wars movies, Have been watch, I. Such beautiful plot, it is. -Talking like Master Yoda- FAIL! HAHAHAH!

Zoro popped at the carpet, but luckily, I screamed at the right moment & he leave a bit shit & a big FART! HAHAHAHAH! Cali eyh. Haven't heard a cat farting before! Or was it me! O.o HAHAHAH

Ps. Pictures from last night's party ada rah fb, thanks to Jim Bulat. =) Ano, me mau you upload kn lagi. Puh-less. -Puppy Face- HAHAHAHA =)

I just couldn't!

2010-10-03T04:03:00.002+08:00

Its 4am right now. I'm having difficuties in sleeping. Knapa kn nie. Even my mom couldn't sleep lately! Hrmmm I'm just being random now. I heard the door outside, i think my brother pun is awake. I THINK. But I was so tired tadi! & now I can't sleep! I think I'm thinking too much. O.o

Howell Star Wars marathon here I come. =D

A lil lil update. Maybe I'll ask emba to make indo-mee soon! =B

The Geng

2010-10-03T01:01:00.003+08:00

Fun Tired Fun Tired. What a day. Skipping school & attending only my exam in the afternoon. I was almost late for my exam. Luan lalai wah aku ani. I hate living so far away too. T.T GP was aite, but I guess I was quite off topic. Rupanya I wasn't ready for the paper. Bru liat 500-800 tarus panic! HAHAHA! Yeah I know it isn't that much. But I haven't had practice on essay for a really really really long time! =O

Went to danny's after that. Liat Tenacious-D & tertidor on his couch while holding a stick on my hand as he pointed out! HAHAHAH. Oh which reminds me the 6 star wars dvd I borrowed! Esuk th liat. Since we have bbq birthday rah si Karey, so malas lh I balik. At 6ish went to Hafiz's crib. Chill jab. His guitar trick astonished me! =O Then picked up Ziemah which was so 'ambung' inda membalas apa! hahahaah! Anu lagi tue, we mc mc mc while waiting at her house! 10min wah brah! xP Well not as bad as Ira's, sampai daddy nya kluar & tagur us last time! =x

After picking up Ira, went to T.Bunut Hua Ho>Menyanyi otw>Abis batt on I-touch Ira>Bali minyak>Jerudong Highway>Berakas Kem>Rumah Khairi. Baik jua ku ingat simpang! Mun inda sasat pakah kali!

Mamam>Syah's surprise visit>Mamam>Bonding>Vaining>Faiz Mamam lagi>Tunggu kn shisha>Bonding some more>Camera-ing>Caking>Car got stuck>Worried about car>The men helped out>My car was free>I was freaking scared>LATE!>Ira's curfew>Saya tak sempat shisha>Hafiz stayed>Drove sending Ira & Ziemah home>Talked otw>Drop them both>Omw home>Sunyi banar! =x

Pictures rah si ziemah. =)

The geng present; Faiz, Syah, Danny, Sarah, Ira, Ziemah, Hafiz, Karey, Senusi, Baby & myself. =O Baby is adik karey btw! xD

I'm sorry if the format seems confusing! =O Anyhoo. Happy Birthday 18th Khairi. We'll hang again dude. Chow meng!

Thursday, where I go home late, all time.

2010-09-30T23:41:00.007+08:00

Loads happen today. In school, in houses, in cars, in rooms, outside. Hahaha! It was fun but a very tiring tiring day. Well make bullets point to ease your eyes. So it wouldn't be all cluttered!

-First, instead of socio we were to arrange heavy chairs from admin to Mph. It damn heavy. Sweat like a dog! =O Used the trolley, rode on the trolley, & almost fell from the trolley! Damn Safwan! HAHAHA! Not once but twice. I guess I never learn. Trolley-ed my way from admin to mph too! hahahah! Ada gambar. But with the photogs. I'll get it soon. Chairs were fucking heavy too. NGALEH ging!

-Chill with Safwan, Azim, Gigi, Muin, Syah & Fiz during ps4. Unusual geng. But siok lh jua. Ako rajin masuk all class except econs. That's 1 week now.

Roadtrip. Raya. Open house.

-Went to Hafiz's house. Saw his new tele on the wall! Waiseeh! He gave me loads of chocolates. Liat kuching manja & baru. Liat turtles. Took a package to puff away stress! hahahha

-Went to Jangsak Nasi Katok. My favorite nasi katok. Bought sambal 'pusu' since my fav 'pedas' was finished. T.T

-Came to my home. Mamam. Online jab. Si hafiz main drums. Aku cari baju. Suruh maid terikah baju. LOL. Show hafiz new cat 'Zorro' tukar nama sudah. Zorro, like always shit tons of shits. -.-' But zorro inda that takut today. =) Took some pictures of scary/cool mask! =P

Scared hafiz by wearing this mask & slowly popped out my head at the edge of the door. He was in the toilet & his reaction slowly change while looking in the mirror! HAHAHHAHA! PANAT.

Hahahahha!

-Left the house otw to Ira's. Msg Msg. Mc Mc. Dtg picked her up. Next to Rozie's. Msg Msg. Syah group. Met up at Faiz's house many minutes late. Syah, Karey, Senusi, Faiz complain! =P

You see me driving!

-Told Ira & Rozie that we are going to Dan's house straight away but lied & went to T.Mawar's house in Lambak. =B Singing in the car.

Ging dlm kereta ku! =O

Syg! Inda tarang! T.T

-Jumpa T.Mawar, T.Apiza & our juniours. Saw Diyana, Rafissah, Farah, Ezzati (Hafal ani wah) =P Jumpa with teacher's putri. =) Kiut~ Mamam. Vaining. Then Syah group balik sementara.

Teacher's cute putri which I haven't met before. & forgot her name too!

-Went on a LONG roadtrip. From lambak & ended up in Bandar. First time ku ke sana wah! =P Jadi roadtrip th. Again singing in the car. But much louder. Ketawa sana sini dalam kereta.

-Arrive at dan's. Jumpa org damam si dan. Met si adorable Mel, Sarah & Fifi. Bonded. I got high. si Hafiz mamam. Rozie spilled drink. Sent Rozie home by myself. Arrive at rozie's. Went back to dan's. Chill outside. Banarnya kn shisha. But inda jadi. Then waited 1 hour + tunggu syah gang dtg. They finally arrived. Ira & I, went to dan's room. With Sarah & Mel & Dan in the room. Dan masih damam.

Fifi, Sarah & Mel. =) I'm never weird with them.

-Talked with Ira while closing my eyes. =) A lil nap. Then played with Mel & Sarah. As usual. 'Horny pg18 shit' happen. -.-' HAHHAHAHA! So wrong man! High as shit. Laugh like shit. Tired as shit. xD Vaining!

Fiz, Uchi, Faiz!

The whole ging. =) Where Uchi being pushed! hahahah!

Karey soon to be birthday boy with his boss/girlpreng! Syah! =B & part of my body! xD

-Mamam spags. Vaining after & again. Cerita-ing, bonding. Syah group balik. Went home at 10.50ish. Went crazy in car. With blasting songs. While singing. Wonder girls, Backstreet Boys, Britney.... & others, during the whole day! xD Sent home Hafiz. Ia salam. xD Then sent home Ira. Got a private singing from celebrity. =B Arrived.

The 'men geng' being 'manly' 2 missing!

Ira my celebrity! =B

-Sent myself home. Thursday night. Many shits in my head. Drove fast. Almost peed my pants when I saw white baju indian dude on a bicycle which seems like 'white cloth' 'flying' & 'headless'! MATIEEE! Kajut ku wah! -.-' Arrived safetly. Sangal kaki. Minyak setangah after baru bali. -.-'

I'm done. More pictures soon uploaded in fb. Syg, si bulat nada. =(
Dead tired. Night readers.

Its 'ALL' Good.

2010-09-28T23:42:00.006+08:00

Really-really short strip of my day today.

-Smoked the shit out of me, I felt lighter after.

-Room smells, smoky. Too smoky!
-Naked Gun is fucking hilarious.

-Sent my cuzn off to UK. Take care cuz.

-Vain-ing & playing with lil cuzn, nephew's & niece at airport.

-Had some eye contact/staring with a girl in airport. Grrrr~

-Makan di jollibee with mummeh then CAM with other family.

-Driving in the 'HEAVY' rain! With mom saying 'perlahan', 'jgn laju' every 5 min. (Better safe than sorry I guess.)

-Came back home 10.30pm. Fed Alex, still scared of the 'bold' man!

-Planning with gang of a relieve stress day of shisha-ing.

I'm done. Had fun reading it this way! :3 I want to find interesting ways.

30 to Midnight.

2010-09-27T23:30:00.005+08:00

Nice title aye. I'm bored. I want to do something fun. Something adventurous. Something impossible.

Now that I can drive. How I wish to drive these masterpieces.

Pure Skyline GTR for racing.

Or sweet 'luxury' Camaro. Look at that car smile.

A 'classic' brand Mustang Shelby.

Smexy Shelby!

IF EVER FERRARI.

FUCKING SEXY!

Fav Model Spider 360.

Ohkay, I got my target to dream of tonight. Couldn't hurt if I have a female companion in the car too! ♥

Historic day, for history students.

2010-09-27T19:30:00.007+08:00

My, what an exam & challenge that was! Though I was not ready, I did interpret on how 'Hardcore' it is. I did & tried my best. But I'm sure I'll be ready for my History A's. Insyallah. Having 1 week of study group may help me get the best grade possible. YES, I'm serious about my history or current A's I took. Gp & History. Source based questions were easy once you made your 'table' to refer. But I timed my self, it took me more than an hour spending on that. Dangerous! It was confusing too.

Oh I set my alarm to 3am to study. As usual I woke up, went to the toilet, did no.1. Then went to bed again! HA-HA-HA -.-' I slept quite early too last night, to ensure my concentration are not distorted. So you know what happen, since I tried not to stress myself too much. I lazily & mindfully did my usuals as I was a robot & not think of anything else, like being in a sub-consious(sp) mode. This is the funny shit! I wore my uniform, then took my jeans right, then.... 'JEANS'? I was fucking surprised, on how that even happen. Half way wearing the 'Jeans' I was like, eyh BARAT jua sluar ku hari ani! FUCKING HIGH man! HAHAHHAH TALUR banar kn.

Overall the exam was 'do'able. Just the insufficient of pages worries me.

-Source essay, time-consuming. But got easy 3 pages. But hate the discussion since I don't have extra knowledge on that subject. Thanks to Sir.Herman's method.

-2 russian question that I answered was actually the ones I studied but yet again I lack of in details & I think I was confuse on which is relevant or not. Pages were not enough too. 1+1 1/2 page.

-The last question which I planned to give up since I didn't study the other topics, it was Imperialism. I did only half page since I gave up! -.-'

-But time management I had roughly 25 mins left. 3 hours seems to fly whilst doing a tough paper like that. But I was proud that I manage to try my best with last min study. But result wise, I'm not sure. That was just a preparation for my A's.

After exam, I felt relieve that I finished that exam. All my tough core exams are done. Gp lagi. But yet again results. T.T I know I didn't do so well since last min study & exam dates cramp. Dangani 'professor' bulat today. Hahahah! Since she looks like one, with her big glasses & still adorable bulat face! Hahahaha. Wanting to escape... I mean balik early pun inda dapat. Suddenly the security was so strict today.

As I was walking to dangani Prof. Bulat arh kreta nya. The dude inda menyuruh wah. But no biggie lh. Aku inda jua mau cari pasal. So I waited & chill sma Alien skajab while waiting for Prof. Bulat. Skalinya, my cuzn ani kn kluar out of the gate lh without the slip balik awal. Pajal nya lh. Kana tarik wah ia ani oleh guard ah. KASAR man! I didn't know they can do that. Apparently that slip is a 'must' now to go home early. Strict-er than usual.

So at lunch time, I sent Rozie home. Then bali nasi katok at jangsak. My fav & jumpa Alien lagi! =P Stalker! HAHAHA! Si Danny belanja today. Thanks brah. Went to his house kn rehat jab & mkn. Skali nya damam wah tarus si danny ah! Kecian! hahaha! Oh & dude thanks for the 'item' you gave me. Krg th ku puff membuang stress!

Ps. Syah I hope your feeling better daleng!

Aite, it seems like I wrote 2 additional essays nie. I'm pooped! Sorry no picture. I'll post some tomorrow. Or just from my fb ada tue kali, our photogenic time in airport. Chows. Enjoy your well deserve holiday esuk.

Thus it produce an egg.

2010-09-27T18:58:00.011+08:00

Awesome title aye. It shows of my result! HAHAHAH! Since I didn't manage to blog yesterday. I'll make it LESS short today! =B Inda lah. Its just yesterday was awesome, fun & sad. So i'll just point out the highlights with no pictures..... Seriously! =O So.... are you going to carry on the read, knowing that there wouldn't be any pictures. I hope not. =(

Yesterday's

DANNY'S

-Went to Danny's house in the morning to have a study group with the leader syah. =) Though it seems everyone is doing a different topic. So a quiet read & then talk about something else in between! HAHAHA! Anyhoo, it made me did the whole 'Russian' side which awesomely 2 of the questions tadi sal what I read. But too bad I was only brief with little detail.

It was lotsa fun. I thank you Danial & Syah for convincing me again. I was just stress the day before. Who wasn't! Oh we had a BIG lunch! All thanks to Danny's mom, who btw cooked so awesomely that my tummy outsatisfy for THE WHOLE day! Ada this momentary part where I put most my chicken bones rah Dan's plate without him knowing, skali nya si Syah jua! HAHAHA! Made me fucking laugh. Danny didn't realise at first. So aku tagur "Dan BANYAK eyh kau makan BETIMBUN mcm gunung wah tarus!" HAHAHA! Still alum ia notice then ia liat plate nya.... EYH TULANG AYAM BASAR SHAPA NIE! With his priceless face. Weird he didn't notice the pile of 'gunung' chicken bone stack like that! O.o

ANYWAY. It was funnier in practical. Then Syah & I went high & malas study that afternoon! Main sma nerf gun th apa while Danny decifer Syah's hand writing. xD Mu'izzah then dtg, I'm going to refer her as lil sis now. =) She was there since we are going to airport to see Miss.Shaz.

So I brought them there, which surprisingly airport inda penuh. Thank YOU!

AIRPORT'S

- We came quite early lh, though we thought we were late. There were some of them like si Boo,Qi,Bulat,Kuzko & Rashid & us. Then dtg tia, one by one. The princess pun showed up! (Miss Shaz) =B It was a photogenic day full of doubts & sadness because most of us inda study for the exam esuknya! HA-HA-HA -.-' But despite that, we were ONE BIG HAPPY HISTORY FAMILY. I lovit. <3 All thanks to Miss. I didn't get to chat with teacher too much. But I did, mock, last min bullied her. Oh bullied both ah-boo & boo too. Its awesome to be around them. =P

After the strike of 7ish. Tears came out when they said their final goodbyes. Miss obviously, made the first move. But it's ok, since its ok to cry. I was still hyper I guess. I knew this would happen so, I just left my sadness behind. Most of the girls shed tears though I notice si Bulat yg paling tahan waa! Syah sikit lagi went on without crying. Qi lh, tarus2. Which was kinda lucu! Since they said they wouldn't cry, sampai be-bet-bet ani wah.

But I bid my final farewell, giving miss, an empty chewing gum wrapper. Jahat aku ani. >.< But no matter what, I will always care for Miss. <3 I'll miss her too.

I'mma stop here for awhile since this post is quite long & boring. Oh I'm bold. Bulat, terpikat tak sama saya! HAHAHHAHA! NAAAT! jk jk O.o

What a day. Part 437?

2010-09-25T23:50:00.004+08:00

Yeah, since the title is so common! I made it unique. Anyhoo. What a day! Loads happen today! & I don't know how I can carry on my studies. This is what happened. Summarize-ly!

-Spend most time with the geng. Especially si tayang Ira. =) We had an indirect kiss! OPPS! hahaha! Not what you might think. I used her lip gloss, & damn did it turn out pretty pink! HAHAHAH! -.-' Quite few tagur too!!

Si tayang Ira. She is one of who makes my school days bearable. =)
Oh see how pink her lips are, that's how pink mine was when I used her lip gloss!
HAHAHHA

-The only class I attend was history. Economics ppr 1 result came out already.ONLY 2 people pass in our class! W-T-F! Well, I predicted that might happen anyway. Economic isn't easy shit nomore! Bru paper 1 tue. I heard teacher misses us, but I'm too embarrassed to show my face to her! I did terrible! =x

-We had this fire brigade thing in school. No comment! Just during the talk, I had a nice view of a pretty pretty girl which I like to stare during my ps! HAHAHA. Ayu lah. Oh & they did a quite cool demo of putting out a fire. Beats the ceramah any time. Oh we also had this history momento for miss Shaz. We are 1 big happy history block family! All thanks to MISS SHAZ. <3

Fires are awesome creation but destructive at the same time.

Most of us did our share. =)

-I'll skip to home. I didn't have a nice late morning in school. I did my usuals. Yada yada yada. At 7ish. Ada bbq at my cuzn's. Its only sebalah so I went early. Then I had a call from moma, that si meow meow baru arrive! I went back home! & saw si Alex, our new cat! I'm so HAPPY! 1st cat I have in the house. =)

Yeah, his name is 'Alex' still 4 month old. Still small & shy! MALU banar! It'll be awhile till ia jadi manja. T.T Bro, sis & I bathe lil Alex. & it poops alot! HA-HA-HA! -.-' Not fun! So then set up the house & all. I'll bring it in my room in a few days or so. ;P

Bro have experience in bathing cats! xD

BBQ moments. Caution quite long! =O

-So back to cuzn's house. The 'MEAT' haven't arrived yet & all uncle's & auntie's sudah pun tiba! The 'meat' came at 9ish. Batah menunggu. Lapar lagi sudah! HAHAHA! Anyhoo the great thing this time is that 'MY' generation have our own bbq area to bbq lh. Kami still newbies, ramai lh jua, but I'm proud to say that I & one of my cuzn took charge since ada experience! BANGGA ku eyh! HAHAH.

Yes, they are a part of my 'generation' mens. xD Big boss there.
& our very own lil grill!

Seperated from the big grill we made bbq some chicken & all the hot dogs & crabs! BANYAK lh comment dari uncles aunties since ada yg masih mantah! HAHAHHA! Cali eyh! I simply say it was either 'Rare', 'Medium' & 'Well Done'! Inda kira! Semua org lapar kn! It was still AWESOME anyway! =P We were called the 'bujangs' HAHHAHA

Then at 10-11ish, me & my other cuzn took over the 'big grill' Kami 2 sja nie! Kirakn kana promoted lh! hahahha! Kambings & udang at this counter! ;P My brother; cuzn's retired dh. Like they say its our generation turn to take over! =D I tell you its hard work! =O Had a surprise to the birthday's families. My sis, my nephew, my uncle. Ramai lh.

Honey, bbq sauce & a lil lil sumthing! ;P

The 'Big' grill which I took over later on.

Panjang sudah my post ahh! I seem to ramble on, its just that awesome today! I still smell of smoke & my hands of bbq sauce. xD

Spoil of the day was that, I didn't get the chance to study. Arsenal is LOSING! I don't like what happen in school with someone/s. & the fact that I have no nice picture of 'Alex' & the events. I need a camera. >=O

RANDOM THOUGHT.
Girls who wear high heels are hot.
Girls who are vain are my type of girls.
HAHAHAH

Night folks.

As I was saying.

2010-09-24T18:56:00.004+08:00

Thee blog, is now miore organised. Neater too. Threw away alot of stuff. Including links. Unfortunately most of them aren't active. But no worries, I did bookmark a handful of you. That aside. Today was fine. Had extra class in school with some twist & 'biasa' things happen. Let me start off.

-Set alarm for 6.50am, 7am, 7.15am. At the end woke up at 7.30am. Yes, not much different BUT for me. Wasting 15 mins can either be late or TOO LATE! Yes, please consider that I live miles away. For those pernah. You'll understand. -.-' So Eventually went off at 7.50 to my 8am class! HA-HA-HA. -.-'

-Good thing its Friday, NO traffic. So I zoomed & arrived 8.30am. MY GOSH! School was invaded by government people doing some written test. Almost all class was full! & PARKING was sampai desert di luar! O.o Most cars I ever saw in katok!

-Luckily class didn't start yet. & at the end we belajar at conference room with air con & big comfy chairs. Sir.H is an awesome & interesting teacher. He also got us Milo packets for breakfast. =P The class is 110% effective & worthwhile!

-Finished at 10am, planning to have breakfast at Mamih with Danny. Scrape my front bumper on the high pavement while I was parking! GREAT, another scratch mark! x.x Just to find out the shop was closed. -.-'

-Arrived home, the usual prayer. Sleep, Babysitting Sara, Play drum with little Sara. & err. About to play game then study! =)

Sara have found her own drum sticks! HAHAHA =3

PS. I apparently persuade or made someone felt jealous of my blog. That she too revived it. I made ziemah revived her blog. Huraaay me! More stalking materials. HAHAHA. Any fans of her do not be afraid to visit.

PSS. I really miss hanging out with you, ziemah, ira & the buddy fiz. Nanti lunch. >=O

I do, I really want to fly away with you.

2010-09-23T22:43:00.002+08:00

I wonder what fun we'll have if we did. To any destination, I don't care as long as your there with me. Wawawa! Just made that into my status. Oh I have good news, I manage to play COD today! HAHAHHA! Apaaan! That isn't anything... but to me, I've been brought back to play handal-ly online again. Anyhoo the good news, is that there is an availability of a kitty cat to adopt! YEEEAA! =)

Apparently it already have a name, Alex. Which my mom thought was 'Ali'?! HAHAHHAHA! A cat name Ali? Kesian jua eyh! Like Aziemah's pets geniuea pig nama 'Hassan' & her cat names 'Jim'. hahahha. What shall I name it? I don't know the sex yet. T.T 'Basket' as a name is cute kn! But its taken already. Sooo 'basket the 2nd'? HAHHAA

Hrmm well I'll be off. Nak main game lagi! T.T

Jangan Di Simpan Tiada Rahsia.

2010-09-23T15:10:00.004+08:00

Hey lo, y'all! Saya sudah bersemangat ingin mahu berulang lagi kehidupan lisan saya. =) I miss it. Beside its a reading material, I'm sure some of you want again to break your boredom. My setia readers. Ha-ha-ha

Anyhoo, I feel so FINE now! 2 subjects DOWN! But the results? Ain't too fond of 'em. But in a few days I'll be having my greatest challenge yet, 4 essay question for history for 3 freaking hour! I wonder if ada break? 3 hours sitting & thinking can kill an individual, no? =O

Exam was so-so, would of been EASY, if I studied a little more. But howell, I'm sure some of you who did the exam tadi, was happy. I went for GP, learnt a new format in history exam 'source' thang. I'm pretty sure you're all confused by now! hahahha! I brought the geng out for lunch. Momentary enjoyment after my 3 days ordeal. Syah, Danial & Rozie was present. Syah belanja-ed & order my carrot juice drink! >=O Which she did give me. =) Thank you bestie. Chill rah, rumah Rozie jab. Main with her adorable popo & loco cats! KIHUT! & with wabbit too.

Went back to Mamih to retrieve Rozie's bottle, then sent Syah home. Thanks again for the dangan Syah. Its been awhile since we talk. If you know what I mean! ;P

Came back home, dari a hujan labat drive. Bang thee drums. That sounds weird. -.-' Now I'll just laze my day off. This is the life. Oh the title, its from a song & I'm in love with it. Hujan - Aku Scandal & I'm pretty sure that I adore a little-little someone. =)

I'll be back later. Ranting about other thangs =P

I'll leave you with some pictures.

Eseh, posing si Syah. Don't choke the cat syah! >=(

I loike the fact that popo doesn't mind being held. Not some cat I know! *Staring at Ira.
hahahah

YES, it looks kesian. Rozie cut its bulu 'tabal'. -.-' The tail looks like bulu ayam tapi muka nya cute plg masih sal ada misai tabal & thick fur! HAHHAHA

What a bear got to do.

2010-09-22T21:21:00.006+08:00

A very god forsaken while it have been! Yup one of those random days! Thought, I'm pretty sure I'm going to write again in my blog! Face it, I can never leave this blog. Many things still linger in the blog, love life, despair.... Err enough with the chatter. Time to get updated! =)

-I just conquer another exam today! Sociology paper 1. But I fear since I did not acheive to make like 6-7 pages done for the 2 questions. Not to mention the economic paper which I know I did miserably. I know my mistakes! FUCK!

-Condition, I've been pretty broken down of these exams! Friends, I did not mean to abandon thee. I just felt the need to run away.... Well why should I since I can drive away! hahah! -.-' After the 2 exams days, I went in the car & zoom home! About fucking 140 miles per hour! I was actually drifting at corners, that I heard tires schreeching. Thanks to a particular someone that said I drove slow, it changed me. hahahah!

-Yes, tomorrow is my sociology paper 2. & you want to hear the fuck great news! Its date was changed from 28th to 23th, JUST TODAY! WTF RIGHT! As if my burden was not enough! So I took this time to laze. Since I couldn't be bothered!

-I was fucking stress! I actually took a spiff in breathing toxin down my lungs! Yeah, smoke! But no worries I ain't addicted to those shits! I actually want to shave my head off again! Well soon. Owh I skipped 2 days of school studying at home & just came for the exams! But apparently tomorrow exam is in the morning! FUCK!

-Though, now I know the 28th will be a holiday. When the fuck is 28th anyway? -.-' Oh, & tomorrow will be my 4th paper down out of 6 or 7! I don't know if thats a good thing or not! Its only the 2nd day of exam , the exam session will be in like a month! I guess I will finish early but I know it'll be some fucked up results since it was all cramp between dates!

I'll stop here. Do stick around readers, I know I'll be back!
-Pardon for my language!

Hesistance to Type

2010-07-16T20:55:00.002+08:00

Yes, its an update for a LONG LONG time. I think I just stumble across an old sanction of peace which I long abandoned & have 'forgotten' about. Funny, I think that finally explain why I wrote the web link '2bforgotten'! Coincidence! Perhaps.

So lots have happen since I left you with the birthday greeting on the month of May. But i found a much different lifestyle as I use to have. My burden & loss still have not left my sight & my thought. Every time i come back to this sanction of mine which I've created for ranting purposes have given me deep scars & treasure moments. No matter what, I'll always come back here. To relieve of my past or to render its glory!

I feel more liberated now. I realise that I'm getting older & also wiser. I feel it, though I still make foolish mistakes but everyone makes mistakes. College have been boring for me now. It seems friends are just not what it seems like, when I was in a smaller school. But I learn to be dependant too. Its what I need.

In fact, I distant away from my friends, famliy... well everybody. I seem better just to be with a handful of people. But the problem now is that I really don't know who that is. Giving this distant does not mean I'll forget them nor ignore them, it just mean I don't want to be dependent anymore.

I have issues. I seem to run out of excuses. But typing it here, just gives me a smile on my face as though this blog is able to listen to what I say. So perhaps that is pleasing enough. MEH! I'm done. =DD

Till next time blog.

Happy Happy Belated/ Birthday to you & you.

2010-05-14T01:02:00.004+08:00

Happy Happy Belated Birthday to you, Nikita Ramchandani

I know that we've been parted, but really it does not change the fact that you affected me in many big ways Nikits such as love advice, flirting, loving & scale of hot men/women we shared. -.-' HAHAHA You'll always have a saying in me. You have awesome hugs & yes, I ain't tall & buff yet. But i don't think my height will change so I guess I wouldn't be giving those manly hugs on ya. T.T hahaha Anyhoo, your legal now. Grrrr~ Jgn lain eyh & your wiser than me, so do the right thing Nikita. Happy Belated to you, love. Enjoy being 18, its awesome. =)

Happy Happy Belated to you too Liyana Yussof

You know, I've met you so recently but somehow I have a bond with you. You are like a little troubled emo sister who I want to take care of. =D Don't be offended laah. I meant that in a good way. =) I've always wanted a lil sister. & you know we awethum & coo like that. ;P We still have many months too come to be more closer so lets keep at it, yes. We taurusean can take over the school with our awesome-ness & rule one day. Huahuahua. I'm sure you'll find your man soon enough dear Liyana. Enjoy being 17 now & be a good girl. I'll occasionally will take care of you. =PP

& to everyone who had their birthday this past few days. =DD

The Blast

2010-05-07T21:00:00.004+08:00

This week came by so fast, I guess I'm having so much fun. Well of course with a few dramas. Anyhoo, I know this is a late post & I apologize. My internet is not cooperating yaw. Yesterday was awesome. But I just going to summarize it.

1) The most, best adorable thing happen whilst playing frisbee with Killer. I threw the frisbee, it hit the wall & bounce off to her forehead. I know it sounds harsh but it was so adorable since she was like so serious & steady can catch it until it bounce the wall & 'THUD' kana her forehead with her both arms open wide mcm kn hug org! HAHAHAHA! Then her so cute reaction lagi. ;3

As a gentleman of course I went & checked her face for damages. Eseh. ;D Glad she was not badly injured. Sorry Qilah Rahman ah, I really didn't mean to laugh. Its a funny cute moment baaa. Kiss, Nabilah & Ezzah was there too. They are the only one who saw my over exposure gut busting laugh.

Again sorry banget Qilah. I'll take full responsibility if you want to sue me. ;P

2) I forgot to bring my bag, I know right! What a klutz! Baru teringat masih nearing college. Adeeeh! So setaie lh aku class to class without bringing anything mcm pandai sja. Thanks to Izzati though for lending hers. I owe you nothing! bwhahaha. But if I think about it. I really don't need a bag. All you need is full scape papers & pencil case. =O I know since I did it yesterday.

3) Staying back with the geng Jeebus, Mirul, I-man & Dina, mostly with Bunneh & Izzati that is =P & at most ocasionally with Ezzah, Kiss & Killer. We watched cheerleading btw which was super raawwr~ Sara, Fiqah, Rozie & Qiyah looks soooo grrrrrrr~ & one girl in particular in the cheerleading! ;P Hafiz was there too, to bad inda liat his true dancing skills.

Oh not to forget bunneh too was grrr raawr herself! OPPEESS! *Busted! ._. hahaha. Izzati was preoccupied in drooling on her eye candy! =P

4) Watched frisbee at the last min sitting with Bunneh, Ezzah & Amal. It was a nice game by the guys. Nice tactics I have to say. Then I & Bunneh played frisbee too. It was fun & sexay! Apaaaan! HAHAHA.

5) Watched the korean club dancing. Fazera & Lynnie was dancing. =O Cute ah! =P Hanged out cerita sama Kiss. I don't know why but we click just like that, right kiss~ ;P We coo loike that! *finger wave! hahaha Chill with them di dapan with Mirul then sorang2 balik.

Oh guess what today was also awesome. Woke up in a beautiful morning & from an awesome sleep. Had a chance to drive manual around Kasat & Lumapas in the morning sampai tertutup engin beberapa kali. -.-' Then I went out again after that bersama Sara & her parents. Ke sana ke sini & I just came back few hours back. Batah bejalan ah. It was fun. =) Summarize even further, watched horses in Jerudong. Wathced people playing golf & polo in jp club. & cut my hair & was in touch with nature. *sigh what a beautiful sight nature can be. It makes me all happy & relaxed. =)

Since pictures speak more than words.

A cow horse? lol! Its smiling. =D

Kiss & Killer I think I found your white horse but sorry no prince charming! HAAHHA I would, but I dare not to! hahaha! xD

Breath that oxidation green sungai. =D

Its so freaking peaceful. Its good to be close to nature once in awhile. =)

Sarah Adrianaaa~ She look so besar here. =O

Last but not least, today ramai orang birthday ah. Shocking. 5 people just today in fb. But I'll dedicated some post for 2 particular people here & now. =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MAZZIDAH~

She is & will always be my scandal. =P This shy girl is soooo adorable & sweet. I miss her so much. Its too bad that I haven't seen her in awhile. Its been so long since I stared her big brown eyes & I miss when she becomes shy whenever I do that. ='(

Well enjoy your birthday Nya Naow. =) Sorry for curi-ing your picture & I chose this one because its cute mcm kucing. APAAAN! =P

The next dedication goes to...
BIRTHDAY GIRL, MUSFIRAH SAM.

Musfirah aka bunneh. =B I met you just this year & I know it hasn't been long. But if you must know you are one of the reason why I like college. You gave me that inspiration untuk kn besekolah. Eseh. Must be that adorable face of yours which resemble like a bunny & your open attitude. =B Jgn marah eyh! Its cute waaaa. We still have a year & half to be acquainted so no rush. =) I have a feeling that we'll do just fine. Dont cha think Firah?

& Happy birthday to the rest Saidatul, Hany & err... hahaha I don't think they will even read this so yeah. Oh why the sudden dedication birthday post? Well I always did this in the past. Don't feel offended if I didn't do this for the past-birthday last few months. Like I said this is my month. I feel so awesomely that I have mood to do these. ;D

& Guess what, there are more dedication to come this coming May. Who is next in the list! ;O

Noite for now folks. I finally did my quota of having pictures & a long post to satisfy your reading wants & needs. ;P Well I can only hope it did. =)

Keep on waiting.

2010-05-02T15:09:00.002+08:00

Halooooo my followers or stalkers out there. HA! kidding, anyone is always welcome to visit here. =) The bright blue sky is dropping tiny droplets of water this afternoon, judging by that statement it is truly a wonderful blue sky rainy day afternoon. Apaaan! With music that fill my cold room. Take note that its soothing song. This is so ideal & blissful. =D

Its May already, for s0me reason I feel so excited & calm, contradicting much. I ain't got no awesome stories or rants today. You know having someone to write on your arm with semi-permanent ink is a big mistake! Yes, I showered, but it would not come off. -..-' Damn ink. But on the bright side, it does make me happy. So Amalina wrote her name with a heart & for some reason, I don't know why she must make it that HUGE! =P Its so visible & big. O.o

It seems the only wordings or drawings that last, oh & also a silouete of Hafiz's print which he drew a bunny that looks like a mouse! HAHAHA!

Oh lets get back to the month of May, there will be TONS of people going to celebrate their birthday & most of them I just met through college. O.o You see, the amount of awesome people celebrating this month. Hahaha not to self-flattery us tauruseans. ;P

Meh, I'm out of words. A brief update. =)
Enjoy your Sunday.

Thoughts of the day.

1) Chelsea or ManU for the win/title? =O

2) Why human beings are frequent insolent lovers? Me included. Go figure...

Wonderful, just wonderful.

2010-04-29T16:35:00.002+08:00

That title is so full of sarcasm. Hello dunia, its been awhile, well about 4 days no update really. Not that long. Fuck man time went in a flash this 2 weeks. I was too occupied, with what? Mpr? Yeah I guess! WOHOOOOO! Hell yeah, its done, finito, kapish, done. It was like 2 days of torture. I kind of liked it but on the other hand, some condition of being pressured, insecure or any shit 'under any circumstances' sucked big time. I felt so zick zince last week. =S

It must be due the shower in the rain while going home using a boat. I like the shower cold rainy weather but not under this situation which i'm going to rant about. An example yesterday, where I went to yayasan with the geng which was fun btw. =) But the heavy downpour & cold weather, please la, that strong rain, riding on a boat about 10-15km/p or some shit speed is freaking cold! You can feel like tiny cold crystals hitting your skin, take note the wind again.

The waved was freakishly scary. I was so wet, that I actually showered in the boat. Baik th bawa sabun, shampoo, barus gigi tarus arah boat ah! HAHAHHA! What a thought. That is one convo I had with Khairi & Uchi! Panat eyh! xD After that adventure, I felt paning tarus waa. So dried my short hair mcm dalam 'ad' sun silk where you swing your head to one side! GHEY! HAHAHHA!

I slept at 8 yesterday, atu nyaman tidor ku except 1 fucking problem, I couldn't sleep for fuck sake! Stress ku tue.

Anyhoo today was hectic. Test essay sana, test essay sini. God, had my socio paper 2, hist & econs which I know I'll flunk at that last one. Kn Izzati! ;D the good thing was that my mpr abis at a short period of time, it does give you positive sanctions alas. So my head was fill with mix history socio econ points, wait throw out the econs. I wasn't ready for that. So ask me anything, I'll give you a crap answer! =D

The only time I enjoyed was spending time with Amal B, Amal president frisbee, Amal baru I met & Amal Booo! HAHAHA Atu ramai 'amal' I mean spending time with Amal boo! ;D It was like nothing in my mind, empty as shit, but she brings out the 'yellow-ness' out of me kn boo! =P

I'm out, for now. =)
Peace to all & to all have a awesome weekend. The month of 'May' please bring your dear tauruseans into your favour! ;3

Detailed Chit Chatters, The People

2010-04-26T21:43:00.003+08:00

Yeah, quite a late update. I was so freaking tired & entah ah wasn't feeling like myself for some reason. College was as usual plus a lil more interesting today. Apaakn, why not just say it was interesting. I hanged out with Amirul, Hafizu & Aziemah during my ps. She is amusing, si rudolph ah! =P

I also manage to have met someone I wanted to meet for awhile now! Awesome, she is in my Ps too. =P

Oh I was shot down in history tadi, I felt so guilty that I held up the class & giving us as a bad example by not being able to pass my 3 week ago work. I did it, but the words are not enough baaa. Why not just accept it & give me low marks. I know i didn't do well. Haisssh! Also I had an emo person beside me tadi. =P Keciaaaan si Sara. She was all quiet during the class hampa pasal her marks or was it because of my doings, for not being able to pass up my work. But I tried my best to cheer her up. I guess it worked out! YOU OWE ME! ;P

I spent break in the library with Firah, Kiss, 'F'izzah & Izzati. It was 'awethum' a word used by Lynnie. Who btw was also there but got ditched later on! Lol! It was unexpected, banarnya mau escort Izzati to bunneh. But the aircon & her presence was enough to make me stay! =) Before that was econs, which btw is so far an awesome class, with the 2 talkative smart one's beside me, no other than Izzati & Kiwie! They make up most of my days in the class. 0=)

I had my ps before lunch, which later I totally forgot that we had extra class. Not compulsory though, but I just felt like going in the class. Ade ler my reasons. ;D Firah msged me, I was loike 'SHIAAAT' so I ran from the canteen like a dog chasing a car, *panting while I climb 4 flight of stairs which seems to be climbing mt.Everest! Adeeeeh belabih banar! (I felt like doing my dramatic over exaggerated story tellings) It just makes things interesting to read, no? So where was I. Not to forget I was carry a heavy bag which weight a TON! With obstacles blocking my way ie other students & people waving at me, where I need to stop & wave back! Adeeeh! xDD

& finally reach the summit, out of breath & making a scene. I sweat like shit too. -.-' & i was the only guy. O.o A momentary dream come true perhaps! LOL! Nadaaa deeh!

I found out that morning I might be having Gp MPR. Mcm nada aku ah. Relak baa. Inda tau bila my MPRs' are. x.x So after the extra class chill with the Gp geng with Belle & Rozie & the others.
It was alright at the end.... I hope but I got a clear headache after that! Thats what happen if I concentrate too much, as a matter of fact i notice If I'm concentrating my writing becomes so organize & small! o.O

Suprisingly Syah was there that afternoon because she always balik awal. Lynnie gave me alot of candies for some reason all day & again after! I wasn't sure If I'm staying back or not liat them main frisbee but.... since Syah masih ada & I felt sick I asked meh buddy girl friend to drop me of yayasan ler, like always. I 'thank you' Syah! I always enjoy the talks we had during the trip there. =D She is my councellor & my adviser, you can say my therapist too! LOL!

My mom wanted me to dangani her to the bank in bandar. So we walked there with my heavy bag around. Not pleasent! -.-' It took an hour lagi waiting!! After makan, nyebarang balik. I was super tired & weak. Tapi aku ani jua satu. I insisted on driving back home. Then something happen wah, I drove too fast on a bump waah! 40km/h I think, that was fast for a 'bandul' -.-' Then kami di dalam kereta ani belumpat wah! HAHAHHA! Cali bro! x.x It was if I was riding a horse or something! Adeeeeh!

Came home, tarus played on drums kn relieve stress! But the weird part was that, I didn't realize I played for almost an hour! O.O In the zone th sudah tue, I was freaking high! I think I fell asleep while playing it! HAHAHA! handal banar! Indaaa eyh, my hands did the talking. Biasa playing the same beats over & over again I pressume! -.-'

I think I satisfy my talkings for today. If any of you manage to read this long crap. I applaud you.

The world will parlay my doings.

2010-04-24T19:52:00.002+08:00

Hey readers, yes you, you over there & you who is just visiting & scanning if my blog is worth reading today! Ohhh Its 'Onion time' I quite miss the emotes. I haven't been using it since it looks messy to read. It just ain't organize!

This week has been quite nice, I met alot of new people & manage to know more people. Apaakn. Yeah, I guess I like to socialize alot. Not only that, I've been hyper all day long! I Kid you not!

But those hyper-ism does not mean that I'm in a good condition. I may be stressed out, too tired or just simply love struck. Not to mention 'happy' moments too. But I'm kinda glad that most negatives energy is put into good vibe. Lets stick to being optimistic,yes! What makes me happier is when girls flash their 'smiles' when I'm down. & most of you manage to do just that. I thank you, let it be from a complete stranger, someone I know, someone i yet to meet or from someone I adore.

'Smile, It's the second best thing you can do with your lips' Isn't that just an adorable/hot quotation. So, must I mention the first. You get the hint.

Oh here is another awesome quote.

'Don't frown, You never know who is falling in love with your smile'

'Your smile could be someone's medicine'

It seems as I'm all happy-go-lucky right now. But really I'm bummed out about something. The only treatment to throw tantrums atm at my disposal is being able to play on the drums. Though, I ain't 'Good' yet. I'll get there soon enough with each passing stressed day! LOL!

I really have no particular college stories as for now. Though, I just realized that college made me more 'confident' & 'outspoken'.

Lots in my mind, burden of my own & expectations. I'll update another soon. I'm just not feeling all that well mentally & physically. C-yaaa.

Internet

2010-04-21T18:41:00.005+08:00

Holy CRAP! Its been awhile since I hear great music. Its non-other then Muse & the song is 'Resistance' The bass riffs is awesome, the drums freaking blows my mind. Well I always admire Muse drummer, same goes to Paramore & Arctic Monkey's drummer;s. Kesian aku ah, Inda ingat nama dorang. ._. I wish to play like them someday. ;P

Today, is a decent day. I stayed back, knowing that Bunneh is staying back to go jogging. Grrrrr~ Gojusss as always, but I recently found out she has short hair! *Gasp. Cantiks! =) Anyhoo she was with Kiss, 'F'Izzah & Nisa. =D It was fun. Spent time with Dinda & Kiwie geng jua, they too were also jogging. Well some of them.

Oh, I played frisbee juga with Boo, Faiz, Amirul, Iman, Kiko & some other frisbee players in the MPH which btw was freaking cold. Nyamaaan!! It was actually awesome. But I felt so bad when I bump si .... I forgot her name, while trying to catch the frisbee. =/ Ganas ah aku! You know the dumb thing was that I didn't get to take pictures for the blog. I guess I had too much fun. Beside with this low mp cam phone inda siok laaaa.

Oh I also played frisbee for awhile at the track with the girl I bumped, Deen, Ilham & the other girl with Ilham. Woaah such 'nick' names i gave them. LOL.

During ps4, I spent time with Ziya & a new girl I met Belle. Siok laa jua. Then chill with si Belley & Safwan if I'm not mistaken. What's awesome is I got to dodge 2 essay hws today. Crap, I still have to do them.

Woah, otw when my bro kn hantar to Yayasan, we had a flat tyre! O.o What timing, di bandar sudah then *puuufff tut tut tut phissshh! APAAAN! HAHAHA. Ramai org stare & tagur while the car was unbalance. It was actually my first, so belajar lh cana kn tukar tyre. I know kesian aku ahh. My brother was not moody so it was a helpful teaching he did. =D Bonding between brothers. *eseh!

Since I didn't have the chance to do it dulu while my father was still around, its pleasent knowing there was a 'figure' who can teach me. Lol, I sound sad. It was a sweaty damn work though.

Bh bh sudah th. The internet is not co-operating today. Sadly enough.

This is an I.O.U

2010-04-19T21:49:00.002+08:00

I did not expect today, Monday such to be quite a pleasent day. I thank you to you guys who made it possible. I think I had doubts on doing the adventure charity club thang, but it was fun actually. Being able to see people buying what my sister & I bake was awesome. ;D & to be actually driving & persuading people to buy was fun. Yes, I'm out spoken nowdays.

College made me, more open now, more active. I tend to speak my mind now & open to meeting new people. Oh which brings me to my new sociology class, it was good-good first impression, the class was loud. My type of class, beside I know some people there, met new ones & actually get to know them better.

Its not a long post today. What made my day, are 3 things really.

1) Being able to spend my time with si 'Manis Hati Bunneh'. =B

2) Being to make a mockery of myself at the charity sale with friends & new friends & new class.

3) A certain someone gave me an 'Secret Admirer' gift. That was sweet of you. Whoever you are. I'm very curious though. I'll find out soon enough, though it'll take me a long long long time. =O

Its late, I haven't finished my essay. So, Good Night. I'll be sure to update.

'Smileys to all, & to all have a wonderful tomorrow'. =)

The time wonders off.

2010-04-18T12:34:00.002+08:00

Greetings,

Dear Dairy,

Its been awhile, Its been pretty busy for me this week & it scares me. When can I actually finish my driving lessons at this rate. Its been on hold since I started school. -.-' Oh, just found out that Chelsea LOST! O.o Yes! chance masih for Arsenal! Don't worry, I ain't got football fever. I just find the last standings interesting this season. Watched ManU yesterday, It should of been a draw ._.

Dear Dairy,

College have been a bitch lately. Not the people, the classes. Once again I've been transfer to another class. So 'Good Bye' to my awesome Sociologist classmates. Namely Izzati, Qi & Amal. Not only that, my history teacher will be taking her PhD, so another new teacher? Oh by the way. I'm currently in Ps4, *thinks, shapa sja at Ps4 ah. Belle kali! *Cross fingers.

There are also awesome time I had in college this week. Namely being able to be closer with Bunneh. =') I actually sacrifice my ps just to be with in class. It was my first & will be my last sitting with her since, my ps changed. =/ I'm also bummed out that I ain't got Izzati in my socio & not being able to have Qi in my class ANYMORE.

Really, there isn't alot of 'love' this week. I miss my geng too. Haven't been with them lately. Esp Syah, since she had 2 mc-s, balik awal & escaped! =P

Oh another thing that made me Happy is 'Economic' class. I love that class, active & smart people & an awesome new teacher too of course. That class makes me happy having Izzati, Kiwie, Amal & Qilah surrounding me! =D If I were allow to put 1 more person there, that would just be much much grateful, no other then bunneh with me! =') BUT Izzati might be moving without me... All because of this 'socio' 'ps' transfer...

Dear Dairy,

GOD, behind all these positives have more negatives. I couldn't see through my optimistic side, when I do it gives me more of the ugly relative negatives. I guess all I can do now is 'Go with the flow' & see what the almighty have in store for me.

I'm on my way to believe it.

2010-04-13T17:38:00.003+08:00

'I'm on my way to believe it'. Its actually from a song, name 'The Only Exception' from Paramore. But I really like that quote for some reason. It gives me a sense of being to finally pursue something. =)

I really have nothing much to say, I just want to update. Its not new, times like these. I just am in need to write something. I feel so 'neutral' so plain now. Honestly, for some reason I want to feel 'High' & just forget.

I have issues, serious deep scar-ed issues which I still can't seem to abide on. Losing someone isn't easy, especially wanting to accept that someone is gone forever. Oh, how much regrets & 'for granted' I had. At times like this, I feel lost.

I guess that is the reason why I'm pursuing for something, even if it means to be very 'selfish', anything to overcome this feeling that can't seem to dissolve. Alas, the quote on the title makes me to pursue that, 'Happiness'. That inspiration, I need.

May be the little thing in life that can bring your smile back. In my case a 'smile' from 'you' is suffice. =)

Nature helps too, It was days back though.

A beautiful Morning it was. =)

Ah the weekend.

2010-04-11T02:19:00.002+08:00

Currently listening to John Mayer's new album. 'Friends Lovers or Nothing' & 'Perfectly Lonely' are just utterly awesome. Kudos to John Mayer & his amazing talents. =)

You know I once thought I was invincible in the game we call 'Love', How naive, but once you get hit by love, it hits you like a brick on the face. I manage to control at my own terms but for some reason I just have a need to break my rules & so far I did just that! Not to say its a wrong turn, I feel so much relief. If I failed in my own terms & that's it for me, I feel vulnerable & open even a fly can knock me down. o.O LOL!

I ain't emo, I ain't tied, I ain't in love. But if that's what my desire is; to 'fall' in love, so be it. I can't say no to my only beating heart. I ain't high, I ain't in delusion, I ain't mad. I know what I want, I know what I need. =)

I feel so calm now, I owe to Mayer's music, its not often I stay up late till the early morning just listening to his songs.

Hell no, I'm not talking about a relationship! Don't misunderstand. I don't roll like that, I don't look softly to that. Not once have I said 'will you be my girlfriend?' nor I 'own' anyone. =) Well I did kid on stuff like those but its all fun & games. Love? Its what everyone need, it can be a bitch but if you play it right its just magical. =) Go figure!

Ooooo yesterday was quite boring, honestly speaking. But you know what makes me happy, is being able to hold her hand for a brief moment. =D

*yaaawwn. I'm tired now.

Morning Brunei.
What have you got in stored for me. =D

No more excuses!

2010-04-11T02:01:00.004+08:00

Meeh, most of them are blurry. I miss my Sony Ericsson cam phone, but its just too outdated to be used. -.-

Oh about the title, no more excuse. I have good connection, alhamdulillah. Its 2ish am now so sacrifice my sleep since I slept earlier tadi sudah. Here are the pictures I promise geng.

Awww how romantic.

Bold brothers! o.O lol

Khairi look so evil here =O

Macho men!

Still managing the weight. -.-'

Posing much! haha

Syah!! =D

ATO Merah muka ku, sma mcm bju si Khairi! LOL! You can actually say I'm blushing! HAHAHA -.-

Vain-hen.

Candid.

I find this the sweetest. =)

Danial is having way much fun! lol!

Gravity, Is working against me!

2010-04-08T19:34:00.002+08:00

You know that song have been stuck in my head all day today. 'Gravity' by John Mayer & yes gravity is in fact working against my favours today! Gravity meaning weight of the problem. All was well this week until I heard that my PS is being changed to block 3! FUCK that! Not only that but I won't be having class with her now. It was 'quite' perfect the way it was. So that means I won't be with my gang as well! DOUBLE FUCK! I haven't been shit paranoid like this in awhile.

Excuse my language, but I just need to say it.
I guess my patience was not with me today, but thank god I'm sane again, its really honestly thanks to 'her' that I regain my smile =)

Anyhoo, I don't want to make this post, you know 'emo'ish or based on complaints. Looks at bright side...... nothing now. *looks at counter, HOLY crap reached 267oo visits udah. Bangga ku eyh!! You know little details in life always tend to matter most when your down. In this case, I feel like I acheived something. =) Thanks to people who visit this 'lame emotional boring' blog of mine, esp people who reads them, much obliged! =D

MEEEH!

2010-04-07T22:35:00.005+08:00

Yeah, I promised some of you an update today. Which I did, but the image won't load! Connection problems I guess. Though I did the post & is long as hell too but not quite done yet! I'll just post tomorrow!

This post ani pun sudah lagging but I promised promise to actually make this post to kick start someone's day.

I hope you manage to get your beauty sleep , If not I'll be so pissed off! LOL, bahapa jua kn marah ani. I wouldn't dare to get angry at you because your just too awesome. Kambang nie. hahaha.

Anyhoo it isn't a long post. Its just one of those dedicated post, just for you.

Good Morning 'Bunneh', I'll see you later aite. So make sure you flash your oh-so adorable smile. Good luck for your econs test later, don't be too sleepy early in the morning yeah.

Ooooo Oooo Oooo

2010-04-07T21:08:00.005+08:00

Yeah what a random title. Be warn its a long post! (This was based on 6th, 7th April events)

To start things off, my body aches & sores from the run in Tasek with them geng & from the badminton after that with my sister! Dood, I've been out of commission since last year kh, so I haven't been doing my dailies for awhile. So it was basically my first this year for awhile. (Yeah, been pretty busy this year) So I'm feeling the pain! No complaint, it was fun though.

I wont elaborate much about that, pictures speak more than word so yeah. This will be posted at another post.

Anyhoo, I'll just talk about today's highlights.

-Came to school with no bags, books, belt, tie & wrg shoes. Wonder why? It was with Syah. LOL! After the run yesterday, I had transport problems which paksa me to go on without taking my stuff. So basically that was my first coming to school empty-handed. So waited for her outside at the bench, alone being EMO!

-During that emo moments, Jazz dangani me. So that was a relieve. Soon I was alone again. But Rashidah sweetly wanted to dangani. She even stayed with me eventhough after teacher said to go to class! AWWWW! She is the only senior, I know Im quite close too! Anyhoo got my stuff soon after.

P.S Syah! I'm sorry for ALL the troubles. -.-' You know I feel very very guilty. I owe you soooo much! I thank you Syah.

- Socio, I didnt get to finish my hw since I didnt have my stuff. But I don't think teacher even marks our old hw. Man, I'm falling behind in socio. Izzati & Naqiyah punya pasal! lol! Nadadeeh.

- I'm always outspoken at GP & History & socio lh (but I lack the wanting to learn, I think is the style of teaching) BUT econ is just too DAMN quiet for me! -.-' I couldn't find connection with the teacher. He is just not interactive, he talk we listen. No freedom! ._. Its killing me softly!

BUT thank god, I have noisy raawrr girls behind me! LOL! Beside, I'm always happy to know that Bunneh is there. Heeeeee~ BUT, yeah another 'but' I couldn't even sit next to girls in the class. Thats just BULL!

- History was quite fun, got closer with the braahs, a guy name Hafiz with his camera became closer friend. Hahaha. Talking about VAIN! Owh ya, teacher wasnt there btw but we have this freaking hard crossword puzzle. But the whole class bonded. I actually stole Sara's phone & she was so panicky! Jahat eyh aku ani! Sorry Sara!

- GP, yet another brainstorming activity based on the series we watched before today. 'Criminal Minds' I find it interesting esp the awesome 'pilot'. Apparently my group, noted Amirul & Farah are wise & knowledgeable about crimes & whatnot which made me rest my brain a bit & just tried to heal the aching body...

-Adinda made me laugh today! org minta massage arah kaki, ia ani massage my back & shoulders plg wah. Well not literally, she just tickled me. But cali wah, how she does it. Hanged out with Kiwie, Boo, Aaron, Danny & Syah at ps until lunch. We tried to escape during ps, but mikin plg stress after we found out that we needed to isi form & shiat! Aku sabar plg. hahaha.

I got semi-scolded by teacher for wearing Boo's headband. 'BOIE' tapi aku jua wah palau! Adakh arah office catu. Go figure!

Then we went to Kaka's to eat lunch! which btw a miracle happend! Si Danial 'BELANJA'! HAHAHA. Generous ya today. He actually belanja us, hahah apakn aku ahh! Thanks dude. Got my usual 'Carrot Juice' Yes I love teh CARROTS! Reminds me of 'Bunneh' after that. Hahaha, I dont see the connection, I doubt she likes carrots.

-Econs, I was freaking bored & during that point I was so 'MALU' as teacher chose me as example to his examples. Say what?? HAHA

Bunneh ani actually spoke to teacher 'Eyh Sir, jangan bully si Arif wah!' Snap! Then then the girls ani pun called my name like so loudly & balik2 lagi wah. Malu ku! Mcm org famous sja aku ani. Tapi sweet lh, it was like the girls against Sir for me. Sweet lh drg ani! Sir ani pun prasan playa waah! I think I overshadowed him. HAHAHA jk jk.

- Dangani bunneh to the drop off, sadly ia tarus balik. Then chill with the braahs, Danny then Hafiz sampai I miss my energy club meeting ani wah. Nada dangan wah, then malas th ku. Then sorang2 balik. Faiz then invited me to his table with a group of girls. Sara was there too, met a new friend. Too bad sekajab sja aku, then balik tia.

-I had fun msging with a certain someone after that.

I'm out! This post is freakingly-ish long! I guess, I'm enjoying too much on college & friends. I got my inspiration back. I thank you all.

Ahhh TUT

2010-04-07T16:57:00.002+08:00

CRAP! I'm so tired, exhausted! I'll update pictures later.

So much for my 450th post! -.-' That's so speacial!

What makes a rabbit, their cute teeth!

2010-04-05T20:12:00.006+08:00

This is actually a dedicated post for a certain someone.

You know rabbits are super cute right, common who don't think so. Esp when they smile? Lol? Rabbits can smile? That's a thought. This post is actually for an awesome friend I recently met, just to cheer her up. I know, I know. I'm just too sweet! HAHAHA! Prasan much! -.-'

So to cheer you up, I found some awesome bunny pictures for ya.

RAWWWR~ Hot right! =PP

Yeah, its the only bunny character yang I know hot. O.o That reminds me of you too.
Please don't get offended! =B

& this to show how utterly adorable & cute you are. =BBB

LOL, I hope that cheers you up, If not having you to smile is enough for me.

Owh last picture!

OMG! Its Vamp bunneh! =O (spoil wordings -.-')

You over there.

2010-04-04T20:15:00.002+08:00

Yes, you!

I've been noticing the increase of people visiting my blog! Its not a bad thing though, but it always makes me wonder who is lurking in this blog. But nonetheless it makes me want to be active again. But does not hurt to use the chatbox too, you know.

I ain't got much to update today. All I can say that I miss someone real real bad. I was

paranoid for awhile ago, the rain pouring down hot Brunei made me happy once again.

Weird I know! I had a nice nap because of that. I babysit Sarah again which was pleasent.

I miss her now.

I shot things in the house with Nerf gun today. Boy, talking about a boring day without

the internet.

I have history test which I want to ace tomorrow I want to jumpa Bunneh lagi.

Okay, I'm out. Take care everyone, enjoy your weekdays. Stick to what things that makes you happy. I know I will.

Ze Pictures.

2010-04-02T10:34:00.007+08:00

Older from bottom to top. =) Bare with me its quite random & unorganized. Enjoy.

Ze Geng.

Syah, the boss/ leader. =)
I love you buddy! ;D

Danny boy, the political brain. Apakn.

Faiz, the sexy? hahaha!

Hot stuff! HAHAHA! Candid.

Geng Tangga Simpang Atas. -.-' HAHAH

Saraaaah! Main game th pulang. -.-' Usu teach Sarah main drum jaa..

Atu marung! Sexy lagi tue cara duduk ah!

Ze Party

The Mc's Hatta & Danish

Zul F & Hafizzu. Eseh!

Coach! As I call him! Posing nie!

Nice lightings! =O

Meh rasta sista maahn!

Mahnn! Blur-eyh! x.x

Is shaping out now! x)

Ze mastermind behind ze parteh mahn!

Before the parteh!

Why did I shave? -.-'

Ze Braah Gang Hangout.

Someone was stress! hahaha!

Ze brathers Khairi & Uchi!

LOL!

Chill yaaw.

Serious yaw. O.o

Smiley yaw!

Yaw! xD

View from Hot Spot.

Babysitting? Sarah! ;3

Vrooom

Atok, Nini Sarah!

Meh mama & Meh Sarah! <3

She was posing but I missed it!

There, Finally a picture post once again. I hope you enjoyed it. The rasta party pictures alum lagi ada! =(

P.s I'm sooo HAPPY now, to have met her! I hear music everywhere! HAHAHHA.

So far so Good...

2010-03-31T16:25:00.006+08:00

College this few days have been blissful for me. I'll just write awesome events & summarize long ill sentences.

Yes, I do miss most of them friends & you can say 'new' friends & you can also say 'soon to be friends' HAH! Pathetic I know....

-I didn't do my socio assignment, but thank god that I have a partner in crime who also didn't do it. You know who you are. But I was still panicked of going to school because of that assignment. But the awesome teacher was awesome enough to let us (the one who didnt do them) go with no problems. HyukHyukHyuk! I'm starting to like Cg.Rahmah & glad I gave her that 2nd chance, though we do still study 'AT TIMES' i understood it & she will cont. her Masters soon, that means new teacher? So for now, i'll enjoy her company.

-Cg.Syaz my history teacher is finding her way now, since she is new. She gives notes & explain in details. But I'm glad I get to have a *cough, cikgu cantik. So semangat for some reason! LOL! Also i feel very comfy in that class since most guys were SGS students & of course ada ze buddy Danial. So all is good. Today was fun too, we actually talked about 'Jerusalam' about the 1st crusade & the holy war of christianity vs muslim. Out of topic much. But it was fun lh jua, since I watched this in History channel few days back. Yes im a 'History NERD' But we manage to share, which is awesome Danny from his movie, This dude from a game, & I from the history channel. All related to the Holy War in Jerusalam. Anyhooo...

-GP was awesome today aswell, we get to do an activity to draw our 'Ideal Holiday' on a piece of paper without words on it, in a 'group' so I was with Farah, Amirul & Fadz (i think) so it was interesting since we have to mix our drawings. Since none of us were artists we improvise! & I also get to know them more. I was pretty much excited/astonished of a particular member. This is soooo obvious on who it is. She is just so 'Ayu' waaah!

Err lets move on.

-Econ is a bore now. Teacher is stalling so much with examples, though it can be funny at times but I need to study too. Owh a new teacher was also there, to take over next time, I guess. Talking about new teachers, apparently my GP teacher is the only one not changing, I hope! (Beside i like her teaching) I also got scolded since I can't sit next to the girls. So closed minded, its not like I'm going to do anything drastic to them. But nonetheless I still love the class. If you read my late late posts then you've known why by now. Raaaawwrr~ HAHHAHA! Who am I kidding, I should be more descrete nowdays, dont know who might be lurking in this blog. Now that I've mentioned it....

On to the moments

-I miss ze boo teramat-amat. So I'm glad that I stayed back yesterday where I spend my stay back time with her at Energy club meeting & also at the canteen. It was just like old days.
Rindu sangat mem-bully dia. Miss her so much sampai ia ter-headbutt my phone ani wah! Atu hardcore banar! HAHAH! Ada tue takah 'Nokia' on her head! Surri ah boo! Kami dua tue jua besalah bh. Anyhoo chilled with Geng Bas Skulah jua, well some of them like Syam, Fifins, Ziah & Amal B. It was siok siok to have them as company.

-I also get to dangani si Rozie last time. It was fun having that energetic girl around also with Mr.Doh too, (si Mamduh, kali) while waiting for their karate club. Wanted to dangani si Farah jua but inda sampat.

-The gang was as usual fun. With Syah, Belly, Danny, Hafiz & ocassionally Ashrie, Boo & Faiz & new member Aaron. hahaha! Bawa ia lh jua, kesian nada dangan. So recently we have our new spot at the 2nd floor tangga area! HAHHAHA! The gang's name is 'Geng Tangga Simpang Atas' HAHAHHAHA! Matie! Cali wah made by Faiz! But today was only Syah, Danny, Aaron & myself. It was a fun hang out today too. Esp start personal curious talks! Siok ahh broo! Buat hw lagi di sana danny ah! We made a toll today as Aaron as the bodyguard, toll collector, servant, point blames at him guy. HHAHAHA! Well I actually appoint him that! Jk jk sja plg! There was breeze at some points, & lawa permandangan nya wah, open & high lagi. Its like a not used balcony wah so hang out sana lh away from crowded people. & we werent the only ones, ada jua tue geng tangga lain. Kami bru buka business nie, compeititon tia! hahahah! Panat!

Ooooo, ada org dating jua wah atas ahh! Owh & cikgu lintas tanggu atu pun bangang why we were there but so far cikgu nya sporting lh, go with our reasons! hahahah!

-Owh it is a pleasent to hang out with meh new friend Izzati, we have only 2 class though but biasa sudah lh. Owh & today I officially met with 'Firah' as I call her. A pleasure indeed. I was still robotic! LOL! Still consider new new friends kn so iatah, not yet biasa. She has the most adorable smile, that can melt an ice berg in an instance! WAAISSEEH! A figure of speech. But so true!! hehe It reminds me of someone's rabbit teeth. Which btw is kiyuuutt!

Well overall was fun today, suppose to go tasek with the gang but I bail due to sakit parut & somehow my nerves was so weak today that i have sudden shakeyness at my arms & hands... I do not know why.

Jaaa people.

Holiday Craze? Well over dued.

2010-03-31T15:45:00.004+08:00

Why is it that every last minute of holidays are awesome for me. -.-' I've been pretty much busy during the first few days till the end, which is good. Better than lazing around at home. But why must the awesome time be near the holidays, seems like everytime it does, I become more not ready for school, gets?

Anyhoo a short story of my 1 week so call holiday.

-First few days, missing college which was so ironic.
-Going out almost everyday for my driving lessons.
-Going out almost everyday 'after' driving lessons.
-Enjoying my cravings on that days going out. -.-'
-Went to 'geng gathering' at mall, chilling as what guys do.
-Shopping to get ready for 'Rasta' Theme party.
-Went to the party that Saturday with some buddies.
-Buddy sleep over on the last day.

Its pretty much my first holiday where I dont laze at home, instead more outgoing. It was fun though. Puas th hati. Oh I miss school, not because of school. Its because of other reasons. Oh, I'll like to describe the 'Rasta' theme party a little bit.

'The Rasta Theme Party'

My costume was pretty natural & not over modified like what the people who went all out. It was an awesome party too. We also had groups (reminds me of our tutor groups, LOL! -.-) Our table was cool men's table! hahaha! Named our group 'Mob Barley' & we came 3rd awesome too at the end. Owh it comprises of Hafiz, Hafiz's coach (which I forgot his name), another dude, Zul F & myself.

They were fun too. Sadly Danial cant make it since ia dating. Shame man shame! lol! Would of been an epic group. Had tons of games, & the Mc was also hilarious, the Raggae band was not too bad. Owh I almost forgot to mention them singer girls were 'Rawwwr'~
Kuddos for the singer girl who invite me to dance with her. I sweat like & I was all HAHAHHAHA! Lucu lh. My rasta name was 'Herbalious Batty Rider' (HAHAHHA) But foolishly I used the name 'Herbalious' it was freaking GAY! Why didnt I just take 'Batty Rider', It was from name generator btw. Hafiz got a cool name which I forgot. But I think it was 'Balastier Prophet' I think. There was awesome & way funnier rasta nicks!

'The Geng Hangout'

Was once again united with Khairi & Senussi (Sounds gay!) & of course my usual buddies Hafiz & Danial. Faiz & Rahat (who apparently wasnt contacted) saldy couldnt make it. But it was an awesome hang out. I also got a prank call from Aime's lil brother which Aime was so evil to set up! If its with these guys, for sure it will be like chilling arah '2' restaurants. So we went to 'The Spot' kh? Lupa ku & Coffee Bean. Siok lh siok.

I have some pictures to post for the holidays (still waiting the rasta party pictures). Maybe later or next time since its also lagging now, I want to write another post for this week's college moments.

Oh blog.

2010-03-26T23:19:00.002+08:00

Oh Blog,

You know when you get bored, you can always have a fun time reading your own history, let it be happy, fun, sad, regretable moments but you know its worth it just to recall them. Unless you have delete them or made tons of blogs & in that case, too bad.

I've been with one & only one. (or 2) blogs in this lifetime so far. =) You know what, I've found out that, blogs actually knows you better, its like a friend who is always there when you need it. x) It's been roughly 2 years few months now, writing down my history & experiences. By now, I could write a whole book of my own life.

I'm glad that I have one, its a blessing to look back & read what I have written ages ago. Heck it also reminds me of posts I didnt remember I wrote, so it gets that much interesting. =) I found classic treasures as videos & pictures I thought I lost. But sadly, the upcoming years, I've been lazy uploading pictures here & is not just because of that, I rarely take pictures now. Words will suffice me. =)

Oh Blog,

You stick with me for all these years, with all my complaints, whines & whatnot. Somewhat you helped me release negatives views & made me all that better. I'm glad that I have a shrine, a legacy if you will, here. Its like my own sanction of stories, that keeps increasing as I go along. Though at later years, My post keeps decreasing, but its ok, I'm still around to update once in a full moon if I were not to be active. =)

I've reached my 441 post now, & hell that's alot. It could of been more, but like I said, I'll still blog, so It'll just multiply more memories, written words from me. Its 26th March 2010 now. Who knows I might read this back in another 5 years & many more years to come. =)

I hope that what I written here in my blog manage to clarify, entertain, give advise, share experiences to people who reads my posts. I know it can be boring to see only words now. Aint using them emotes today, just plain smileys & also no pictures either. But I hope you readers, can stick around & to those who does, I thank you for your time reading it. I apologies for lack of updates at times, but I aint a robot who can manage to blog everyday. xD

I'm reaching my life to a whole new step, a crucial step; college, the way to independent & whatnot.

Till then, I'm out. =)

Reliasation

2010-03-24T01:05:00.005+08:00

Holy Crap. If some college students realize, that we only have 1 & a half year to actually to shape our course. Yes, I'm that slow. I know I want to go further studies after A's, so hopefully making it to a known university. But now it 'just' hit me that I have not alot of time to prepare for that. Imagine after this 1 & half year is over, if I'm lucky, I will be independent away from my new/old friends, away from the country even. At my present stage, I'm just aint ready for that level.

Its true what they say, that college is a mile stone, an important stage. But to have it done with & to succeed in this 1 half years for the next great step/leap is tremendous pressure. It makes me worried just thinking about it. It also saddens me that 'school' is at the last for me. I'm greatly implying this because I know teenage is the best time of one's life. Admit it, what teen manage life without school, well in Brunei anyways. Not the whole term 'school' but the prespective of school of being able to make friends, to be known, to socialize, to fall in love, to teach life experiences etc. Its just mere memories now. Aint no way on going back now.

Not that I dont want to go forward. But I made mistakes & regrets that I cant get past by. I wallow in the past, so each passing day was just a waste. I also did not reach some resolutions & goals. Yet again distract me as I go forward. Next thing you know, you have a job, marriage & kids. Where I certainly know i'm not ready for. LOL. At that point in life, there wouldnt be as much opportunities as we have now, being in this teenage life where opportunities come in any form, that shapes one's life. Hokay, hokay, lets stop worrying now. I'm tired, its late I'll probably forget what I wrote later in the morning. I got my driving lessons later. Beside I still have the 'opportunities', I'm glad. So I still have a solid 10-15 years to reach my further studies dream. Insyallah.

So do take chances as they arises, you'll never know it could be your future.

Good Night/Morning to all. Have a great day.

Its a test of 'Faith'

2010-03-19T22:42:00.003+08:00

Greetings my readers, So holiday have officially started. What a way to kick back & relax, yes? I started my holiday with a whole day of album filled music hearing. John Mayer & Muse to name a few. Its so soothing.

Nothing particular in my mind, so I'll let my hands do the talking.

I can't seem to take a break from this song in my head. Its John Mayer very own 'Free Falling' & 'Daughters'. Its such beautiful songs. Another thought in my head, itching to buy bass guitar, something about that instrument that intrigues me. Though I have not seen alot of bassist here in Brunei, or at least 'hear' any from my buddies. So why not, If I try. Prolly will take me years to even play any string instruments. Lol.

I feel very empty today, I don't know if this is a blessing. What I mean by this is, I don't feel attached to anything right this moment. Maybe its telling me not to worry & just go with the flow. There is always a thought of a certain person on my mind, but like I said today is just different. I think what I'm trying to say is that, we should have our own time once in awhile, lets not think or worry about anyone else. Is it greedy to feel this way?

I also felt very different lately, ever since I got back from umrah. I see lots of changes in me. But I would like to think that I'm changing for a good & positive way intended on what Allah has in store for me. I feel very much thankful, ever more thankful than I use too. I also have peace of thoughts that makes me very patient now days. Or at some days. lol

I do indeed miss my father too, without him, my family is considered 'Dysfunctional' as Socialogy taught me that. Its true, I'm noting down facts & put it in perspective that I kind of lost my support & see that the stability of my family is dwindling down. Its a thought that has always struck me to the core, ever since I lost him.

Woaah, seems that the points in this post was really deep inside my mind. Just needed the time to dig it out. So much for 'nothing particular in my mind' as I said earlier. lol

Till next time. Thanks for reading.

So the bear went home crying.

2010-03-18T22:16:00.002+08:00

Interesting title aye. haha, Nothing relevant of what I will write about today. Call me crazy, but I wasnt ready leaving college for 1st term holiday. Yes, I do need that rest, to reorganize & unwind. But somehow I didnt want to leave just yet. The factors of that may be that of the friends I met or the fact that I'm not satisfy that I didnt meet a certain people I want to meet so badly. ._.

So as I was saying on my other recent post, that I had my eyes on something, or someone. lol. Its weird. I feel so attached. Naw screw it, I just know I'll miss her. She is just adorable. Next term perhaps.

So highlights today, assembly was a bother, standing for an hour while hearing speech after speeches. Ngalih wah kaki, we are not robots. Skipped gp because of assembly.

Had free period at socio talking about our assignments, well not really, I was talking away with Izzati & Naqiah. (yeah, i decide to write names now, so I can remember) Borrowed teachers Air Mac book, mcm nada I went through her laptop, & they decided to take picture from the cam & put it as teacher's wallpaper, I regret not joining in... Damn! hahaha! By now teacher tau tue sudah. hahhaa!

Anyhoo, had history like biasa, tried to get close to the new teacher. hehe. Had a tiring time rubbing the board with Danial. damn cheap boards. & I get to officially meet Sarah from Danial's group. Econ was fun? Boo & Belle waved at me, & I waved them back while greeting cikgu, then he was like giving me that look. hahaha cali lh.

I wonder why teacher looks at me all the time, or is it the girl behind me. Owh & he also put me on the spot, about my age being 22. -.-' But in return I found her age. She is still young. =O Yeah, 'she' is in fact in my econ class. =)

Owh break was with them gang, for only awhile. =( So I didnt get to hang with boo that much today. Had a rushed messy snack too... -.-' Then went for assembly. Then after lunch went to the 'usual' hang out. Dangani Belle, & the best time of that time was when I saw 'her' there & 'she' waved at me again. =') So confidently waved back lh. ;D Utterly gorgeous, she is.

Then Syah came, I wanted to wave 'her' goodbye, but she wasnt looking. =( So, went to Syah's ride with Faiz. & saw Syaza too. Syah - Za short for calling them both, btw escaped school. Ish Ish Ish... Went to Mall to eat lunch, saw boo~ Destiny! hahha! majal. Because I didnt get to say goodbye to her either, tapi she was with her mom & sis. Nada brani kn bercakap sma boo. hahha.

Anyhoo, ate while updating. Sian si Faiz ahh, & ada lh panat story2 nya ani! I havent laugh as hard since... I dont know when. So it was fun. & to have Syah - Za as always, pleasent to be with. Ooooo & boo's family was like 2 tables away, sudah kn join tue! HAHAHHA! Cam banar. Then mau cari another hangout, so off to McD, Inda plg makan lgi. Just chill & minum. Before that bumped into birthday girl, Aimi. =) Faiz plg tagur 1st, then I said 'birthday'. The girls oblivious ahh. Biasa girls chit chatting nada focus on other things. Jk jk ;D

Then bla bla bla ke yayasan, bla bla bla, pakai boat, bla bla bla mama inda suruh drive balik since she is in a hurry mau liat drama. -.-' Then... I'll stop here... Too much info... its too detailed this post ahh. & no emotes today. Karang th. Boring jua this post ahh mcm dairy plg. -.-' Krg th post lagi shorter one. :D

Happy Holiday children. Enjoy.

Alas

2010-03-13T23:02:00.006+08:00

Connection is a bit dodgy now. Anyhoo, Hello to you my readers.

I've been ranting on college all this while, well really because i have no time for my own leisures, its also tiring & that i'm commited to college.

I bought 3 movies just to update my self with movies & I got to say that 1 is actually worth while, & the other 2 are... yeaah. So why not I'll be a movie critic now.

Ninja Assassin.
Its god damn too bloody, I'll say. Beside that, the story is very... cheesssy! But I did enjoy the fight sequence so its not a total lost. Owh & the actor Rain, he did ok lh, not too awesome not too bad. I'll give it a 2/5 rating.

Percy Jackson.... Lightning Theif (panjang wah the title)

Its a pretty decent movie, had few laughs, interesting story line but with flaws & fast forward stories. The girl is hot, esp the girl at the underworld. Raaawwr Moving on, its quite entertaining & different. I give 3.5/5 rating.

August Rush

Its actually an old movie. But I decided to buy it. This movie is worth while! Trust you me! Well if your interested in music, romance & raw talent. Yeah why not watch it. Its a calm story which does not happen to make you sleep or feel bored. Ending is quite disappointing for me, would of been epic. It deserves a 4/5 rating.

Highlights at college.

Met 2 new girls at GP group, 1 of them is actually cantiks. So I did flustered when I talk to her. They are btw my new group the thing I dont like is that its only a group of 3.

Had a nice walk & talk with boo. Although its for awhile, but I loike it nonetheless. & hanged out with the usuals during Ps.

Wohooo I finally went home early today. Since I dont have class that afternoon. Came home around 2ish & I had lots of time for once. Wanted to do something for myself, then tertidor tia! HAHAHHA! But I manage to watch 2 movies today.

& the best day of today was TA-DA-DA *Drum rolls...
When the girl in class who I obviously know that I have a crush on waved at me!
Owh betapa malu nya saya tadi. I was flustered tarus. Waaiseeh! Ragu-ragu saya melambai dia balik. LOL! At first she waved, first comes onto mind 'Who she waving at' I looked around me, nada org pun. So waved back lh & hyper after that. Stuck in my mind sampai balik. I'll meet her soon enough lh. I'll just chill dulu. Her presence is enough to make me smile.

Its late now, about 11.40 sudah. I need sleep... & dream. LOL. Owh & my sister balik udah di Brunei kali. Dari Shanghai yo, hope she buys me something. Sleep well everyone. Owh to the tag boards spammers. Please use your original names, its annoying! You know who you are, I dont need to mention names right.

Expressions come to thought

2010-03-08T20:44:00.004+08:00

Guess what, I escape my first class tadi with Syah. Samseng kn! HAHAHA! Not! Today was our first time going to our respective classes & meet with the tutor & classmates. I was still confuse about the timetable so I presume that my PS (personal study) is at first period. I have doubts not able to find Danny, since he is after all in my class for 1st period tadi which is History. So I asked balik2 arah Syah, banar kh this is our PS period & she just nods. Of course lh not her fault, saya pun tak faham. Lucu lh, we were like roaming around school while most have their classes.
Met with Belle later on with her friend. She too ter-skipped class but at least she was getting info at the admin office while we were wasting time. HAH! Skali nya, shocked berabis that we just skipped class without knowing! LOL! At least I understand now. Then that 2nd period is our PS time.... + with break. So chill th lagi. Owh & I met another girl today. Her name is Nisa, not sure the spelling though, thanks to Belle. But 'DAMN' in my head, I just missed History, but I got good feed backs from Danny since the teacher is down to earth & the one who can really teaches too. She is a woman too. So I was going to my next class Economics, & i had no one, sorang2 lh. No biggie, nanti biasa jua tue. & finally I get to go classes to classes format. I loike it actually. No more staying on one place like highschools, that all ends now. Beside each class has different people so its interesting. Oh back to econs, fortunately I have a 'Legend Teacher' as he claims & some of his ex-students. So it was quite homie tadi for my first class. So I have confident in that class beside the girls in the class are ini macam! WAWAWA! Nanti th bekawan. Insyallah. Though he was late & his lecture was a bit long, it really went into my head. He gave us tips on which teacher has knowledge of their subjects or not, & he agree to give us notes. which came in handy for socio class later. So he took few mins of my time to go look for my next room. Still a newb here. So I was came late for my socio, well not that late. 2nd late, the students seems to be all smart. Its kinda of intimidating, the dude next to me has like A1 in english, the girl on the other side A1.
I havent go for my Gp yet since we have orientation so esuk lh tue. I did enough today. Orientation was, lets say... ok lh. Main2 sma BE groups, but the sun! ARRGGH! So I didnt feel good & that wore me out. So I'll just talk about my classes. Because I find the classes much more awesome. Semangat nie.

Night folks.

*Sigh
I find her so adoring~
LOL!

2010-03-07T16:38:00.005+08:00

Anyhoo, it was also 6th of March that Saturday. Ia sangat penting bagi saya kerana salah satu kawan saya yang comel, kecil, cantik, sexy punya birthday tue. WEHHEEEEEEE She is none other than Boo, Sixy Nerd, Pengi, Yayang....

Amal Naquiah Binti Kifle.

You know, I love you boo, sangat sangat.
You might not know it but you make me feel like this...

Ada jua mcm ani...

Haahahaha. Faham lh boo tue ahh. <3

You know, I've ever so thankful to stumble upon you dear friend.
To another 2 years. If your not leaving that is. If you are then to being able to be your friend.
High Five

Bring on the fire brigades

2010-03-07T16:01:00.003+08:00

I feel much better now. But at 2am just now, I was fucked. My throat burns, my stomach growls, my joints hurts, killer headache, cough that trigger mini storm of headaches. But, im thankful that I feeling better. Just minor headache, hot bodeh & some pain joints. It seems all that bad, well it is. I just dont show it UNLESS i'm alone, & take note if I'm in excruciating pain, foul languages & whining kicks in.

But when I'm near my friends, this past 2 days of college, my sickness, injuries seems fine. So I must be with them always. Well lets just hope I feel better this upcoming week of college. I need paaawwooor (energy)

2nd day of college was quite happening & not too tourchering & not boring as the first. Im glad, but my only problem is that my batch group doesnt get to go to the lectures room where they have cinema sittings.Consider lucky to who does. My ass & back was stiff & sore of those comfortless chairs of ours. SHIT reminds me off the slow death on plane chairs again! NOOOOOOOOOOOO!

& the damn speakers was like inda clear so I cant really hear. But besides that ada cikgu2 yang sporting & cali bagi awesome speeches, I loike. If dapat dangar lagi bisai kn. Howell, ikut nasib. CCA's was also there to showcase on stages. Ada siok ada yg... yeah. So I really like the 'Korean club' atu. Where they made mini korean drama & spoke korean which cannot be heard & have a subtitle shown on the slide with vidoes. Its really practical too & awesome.
Pokoknya lucu lh lucu. The band club did well too. The dude has a nice tahan voice & apparently has many fans & can play guitar while singing lawa-ly. Thats talent. So overall it was great.

Alas

2010-03-05T14:17:00.002+08:00

As most will know, Im back already in Brunei. My Pre-U has started sudah, & im pretty sure that Im not doing well on my heatlh.

So when I came back from Kingdom Of Saudi, which was a 10 hour flight I already had throat problem. I can't swallow, it hurts when I did. It must be the cold weather on Taif & the wonderful grape cold fruits they served that broke my throat.

So yeah, I came back on Wednesday, which the next day I had my first day of college. It was freaking tiring when I came back to Brunei. My throat made it worst especially when I sleep. So, yeah, took my folder at school & did last min shopping. I was all that excited that Im starting college, but I went to bed late for some reason.

Not only that, I just realised that I was jet lagged since I cannot sleep. I was like delayed 5-6 hours. My first time being jet lagged. It SUCKS. Meaning that, My body is here in Brunei time but my mind is still in UAE. So what happen is that in my mind, I will still be awake supposely doing prayers or something & not to sleep yet. Its hard to explain but It seems wrong to be sleeping that morning. Woke up 2-3-4am with also my throat tourchering me. Remember that I have college in like few hours...

Guess what, I overslept. It was 6.10am my sister panically woke me up. So I was in a rush mood. & left the house at about 6.40am. What a way to start first day of college being late & rushed.

It was horrible. So then later found out I wasnt the only one late so a little realief. Saw some of them friends during the paying & stuff. Later at lunch finally got to chill with Syah, Danny, Hafiz... & others & si my sixy boo who I missed so much. That was the only time i like, spending my time with familiar faces. The orientation was full of speeches. Not only that but my payment cheque has problems so I had to go see the teacher again then go back in line again to buy the t-shirt. After lunch I was freaking tired, I guess my energy is empty, take note that I didnt have that glorious sleep nor I eaten anything because of my throat since the plane food I had. I was famished, thirsty, tired on the tour. & then endured more briefing. We had 45min left of school. We finish at 3.45pm btw, but guess what the brief was extended to 4pm. That adds another 1 hour to the talk & by that time I was about to collapse but sat near Danny lh, not with BE group so becakap lh jua & with this dude. Non stop kami so kept me alive. So i met a new friend, but too bad not in my BE group. I think i have little progress with my BE. At least I have my cuzn with me but we dont talk as much & i did talk with the other people in the group.

So then I started coughing, this cough is so weird, whenever I coughed it hurts my head. Like a mini headache cough. It freaking hurts. Then sister picked me up like 4.50ish while waiting I hanged out with Syah, Belle & Danny in her car. Came back home at 6ish, yeah late since my sis have errands to run while i was dead asleep uncomfortably on the car chair, reminds me of the airplane seats.

I ate nothing but kebab that day, & vomited it out again. So i just slept the whole day till today, Friday. Since I didnt eat basically anything or what i ate comes out again. I was freaking weak today. I have trouble moving & my joints hurt when I moved. But at least I got my sleep. Thats well enough for me. I force fed maggie & came out again. Im super weak now but for some reason I have my humor, happiness & kinda thankful for some reason. This is a long post & if you'll see its really not that happy one for me. It unlucky actually. But whatever happens, I just know that this is all a test from God, & i know I can whistand what he bestow on me & be thankful for all his good doings for me.

I will write about my pilgrim another time, as soon as I heal 100%

Political Views...I guess...

2010-02-18T00:46:00.003+08:00

Im a person with my own pride & own opinion, I stand strong by my opinions. Though it be flawless. Anyhoo, I have a thing with people who are forced to take something not to their own satisfactions or capabillities. Eg, educational wise. If you don't like the subjects of any, please do not take it. Please do reason with it. Am I getting to you so far? Well here is an example. My cuzn, average person as I, was forced to take subjects he did not have interest & is capable in doing. Though he was forced by his ****** & look what happened.

Everytime I met him, stress was in his mind & appreance!! He tried his best at his A's but he did not get them. So surely he wasted those 2 years. All I'm saying is, If you want to do something please do it. Even if it sacrifice your friendship or whatnot by my guess do it. In that way there would not be any regrets. You'll surely get your success.

If it were to be me, I'm simple, I want to get my A's with subjects that I have interest & that I can actually deal with. & get scholarships to a good university. Amin.

Boo, I hope your interview kick their asses & you get in.
But hell, i'll surely will miss you, if boo nada!
Tapi if thats whats important for you & what you want to do, I support you.

For everyone out there for that matter. =) Though I have problems with people pursuing such feeble things such as people wanting to get celebs love & whatnot. I see alot that in Brunei nowdays... Its just foolish. I mean odds of finding love in your own country is like ten folds than trying to pursue celebs 10000km away, nonetheless the one your after are celebs. Ratio nil...

Anyhooo... I'll rant about that next time.

Owh, I might update if ada connection when I umrah. Liat lh keadaan nya. I'll be busy jua.
Well that's my ceramah for today. Didnt know it was going to be a ceramah...

Chow people. Do take care.

HSHSHSHS

2010-02-16T00:17:00.004+08:00

Awwww

Boo punya post itu made my day.

So I'll return the favor. 'Happy belated love day' si Sixy Nerd of Mine.

Boo sama jua lame.

I had fun on our 1 hour date.

Syg kmu juga paree, brader, pengi, sixy nerd, boo. You are after all my manis hati~

Today mamam mamam

2010-02-15T22:20:00.002+08:00

So my family & I decided to go Secret Recipe to celebrate my mom's birthday. One word 'Awesome' its worth it too, i'll say. I haven't been to Secret Recipe in Brunei. Its still quite the same though. Ordered Tom Yum, thats the shit right there! The Marble Cheese Cake & New York Chesse cake are Heaven
I'll say that its a truly delight dessert! Just heavenly. It was a pleasent family gathering too, with Sarah & soon to be bro in law. Its nice to have a family gathering & having fun. My father will always be with us. I miss my father.

So anyhoo, we had a talk about relationships. & I had a thought about it, I found out that I fell victim for most... relationships I ever had. Its always me who gets lovestruck & hurt later on. All i'm saying if I may, I would like to find a caring girl. lol what am I saying.

Later parees'

What day is it?

2010-02-14T11:50:00.003+08:00

The weekend went quick, I think its because the non-stop out going ordeal. Anyhoo, when I thought I was going to 4th August' gig, I missed it... But at least one of the star came sleep over that midnight, bru si Hafiz balik nie. Sorry braah, limited time. Damn, syg I didnt go! Transport problems, yeah yeah, my fault for screwing around with getting my license. Sorry for those people I promise to bawa jln2 since last year! But insyallah, I'll get them when I get back from Umrah. OMG, I'm going umrah soon. I'm happy yet overwhealm. Lets fufill my duties in umrah as intended dengan sempurna. Amin.

So I'm going in about, 4 more days. So boo, nada update slalu nie. Tahan th sja boo, jgn th stalk me for 2 weeks. LOL.

Bh short update jaa. Have to attend function in a bit.
Later.

Midnight

2010-02-13T00:36:00.003+08:00

Im sooo tired. But I dont want to go bed yet. Dont you just hate feelings like this. Or is it just me. If only I were hypnotised in sleeping early can help me. Its been like this since forever I guess I need to find things to do. But it seems all to bored now. LOL I'm just playing withe emotes if you must know. Sakai wah aku ah. My bad!Have a pleasent night everyone, do enjoy your rest/sleep. Its one thing you can never enjoy enough when your tired. Good Night!

Wait, dapat kh kamu liat the emotes. I was just wondering.

Add 'Feelings' in blog

2010-02-12T20:23:00.003+08:00

So I decided to try adding some emoticons in blogs. So here goes.

It did quite awesomely too!

So now it'll be much awesome reading my blog.

Later.

Just

2010-02-12T19:24:00.008+08:00

Meeeh, siok eyh watching Marie Digby singing arah my blog! hahaha! I just so love the ways she sings, & her expression while singing, her unique of saying certain words & of course her voice. Awww, how she makes me squinch a smile with just watching her sing. :3

I guess, girls who have talent singing attracts me. =O Well with the other traits of being active too. Anyhoo, yesterday was bro's hang out day. When with the buddies memaloi rah mall. & to think I chill rah mall with no intentions that few hours, while waiting the movie to begin. I mean dtg mall kul 12ish liat wayang kul 5.40. -.-' Bru jua tue, semangat banar.

Me Brahss.

Full much! -.-

Swayger Hafiz.

The Mafia! lol!

It was just Rahat & Hafiz in the group. So it was all good. Whenever we tend to hang out, it always involve foods... I ate lunch rah Food court kn then mkn tia arah McD. LOL! But like i said its all good. Chilling right. Then met up with Rahat's bro with Khairul & their gang & wathced 'Wolfman', I say its a decent typical movie, with the thought of Beauty & the Beast appereance in my head till the end of the movie. Sorry brah, lol. Lets just watch something more appealing & 'worth every penny of it'. I like to leave the cinema, well satisfied.

Send Hafiz home, watched Dance Flick which btw is pretty lame but gives you few laughs, had a nice convo with si HYPER booboo. x) Then slept early..

So today, bangun at 6ish, I kid you not! o.O It was so damn early. Lol, inda biasa lagi wah. Thats the earliest I woke up this hols, because most of the time I slept at the early mornings. >.< Anyhoo it was for taklimat umrah at 7 where we came a bit late,I found pleasent hearing the ceramah at masjid jami'asree given by utztaz (lurus kh tue) It was funny with his expression & do's & dont's in Umrah. I give thumbs up for his ceramah. It took hours though.

Hrmm I did nothing much today, watched another funny movie flick called 'Stan Hellsing' DAMN maaah, the story is off worst then Dance flick but.... Hot freaking girls in that movie changed my mind. so ITS ALL GOOD! ;o

& I had another odd dream of a girl... I think I miss her but we havent had contact in awhile. ='(

Im out. (malas kn upload pics)
COD-ing time.

Utterly Purely Adorable

2010-02-10T00:44:00.004+08:00

She stole my heart at this video. <3

Just love this song.

Enrolling to a new environment

2010-02-09T22:53:00.005+08:00

Helooo people. I'm way tired today & busy as well. Went to Pte Katok today. Not a bad sight, lots of potential, if you know what I mean. HAHA.. But... that really was not the idea. The thought I had was 'Happy', Being able to reach this far. The registry process wasnt too hectic. Its quite organize, the way I like it. Saw alot of them schoolmate too, as well as unexpected people who I recognise but they don't know the hell who I'm.

Nanti th tue meeting people. Though the experience there was somehow 'peaceful'. Nothing bad or mishap bestow onto me. Thats good. =) Though, pressurize about picking the As level, which the soon to be teacher was so eager to get things over with. -.-

Picking my subjects? I though long & hard (LOL!!) about it the day before, sampai it was in my dreams ani wah. Well thats a good thing, means Im commited into them. I read the requirements & really I had many subjects I can pursue. The lady, advise me on such matters, since I managed to confirm only 2, Sociology & History which in term is a good combination for a lawyer as she said it. The career 'lawyer' came into mind & thought of Syariah. Which honestly, I dont think Im fit for. Common... hahaha...

Physcology, Econs or Geo was in my head... So really I just chose what will be even better with the combination. Econs it is. =) Physcology, sounds awesome but really, I know not much about it. Nyasal krg. Took about 2 hours overall. My mother actually terlanggar traffic cone which was hilarious! HAHHAHA! That was random btw. So now, in my head is just to melaksanakan my dad's wishes to go Umrah as a family. Though its without him... It'll me my duty to fufill his last wishes & do it with all my heart once I reach there.

Quite a long post today.
Owh & grrr cant wait to hang sma boo 'Sixy Nerd' >=D
Sayonara. =)

And so it begins.

2010-02-08T21:25:00.003+08:00

It finally came out, Our results that is. Though, I find my own not up to my standard & a disappointing one. While waiting for the msg from dst did not help at all, hearing people have their results already, made HUGE difference, you know, PRESSURE. Though my sis have contacts from MOE, she called & told me the result & I said 'Thats it!' I did not want to heed those results so i became ignorant & stubborn, waiting for the msg. Which later convinced me that I only gotten so few.

Later at home, I finally realised & took it in, 1st thing comes into mind. Was that I did not fulfill my father & mother's wishes to have good result. Instead of a smile I got alot of questioning & sad face around me... Msging with them friend who I found out made it did made me smile. Im proud of them. But in the end...

I still am thankful that I got this far. Terima Kasih Ya Allah, Alhamdulillah.

Congrats to people who ACE/pass their O's & A's btw. People who didnt in the other hand. Like the saying, 'Don't give up'. Failure tends to open other oppurtunities, yes!

So i came to school the next day, which was today which was pleasent to see my friends & juniors. ;D I was freaking nervous though since I havent seen most of them during my lonely holiday. Aime was the first at the scene, had a little chat, then more of them juniors. Im happy to see you guys. =)

My gang was there to, but didnt do much talk though, Syah lampau busy, well who wasnt. Baru masuk office nampak meh 2 fav girls booboo & bazhy, which i miss so much where I wanted to say that but *toing ada ibu bapa mereka. HAHAHA! Malu th tue.... then caught on with Danny & the guys.

It was freaking busy in the office & so sampit & so un-organized! Nada ku suka tue, its so not efficient, sorry SGS but its true ._. Its always been like this... Then bla bla bla, pukul 11+ bru dapat form... bla bla bla. Ambil result... tunggu form... isi form...chit chat sma Rachelle jab... Kana marah oleh mom since impatient udah....hahaha.... tunggu kana chop... begambar...photocopy.... Haissh busy day. o.O

Bh I rant alot today. x)
Going to katok esuk, wish me luck.

And soo...

2010-02-04T15:50:00.004+08:00

The dream carries on... Having soooo random dreams, weirdly its all sad. I know I have the same dream but I could not get a hold of what's its about. Well, its a dream afterall, go figure. I remember meh booo dlm mimpi itu. o.O

Au deeh, I miss you wah kali tue. & some other childhood friends & cuzns. Odd to the point it still bothers me till now. Nada banyak kn cerita, saya blank banget. Saja kn update. Au Bazh, I miss when u pull my hair. When i pull them myself nada effect. Haaapaaan! ._.

Btw do give me your blog links arah chatbox & & & yang kunci blog atu bagi lh saya masuk. ;D
To whoever reads this blog. ._.

No inspiration today.

Owh & my email b_not_afraid165@yahoo.com (i know bida, zaman emo nie) -.-'

Apa tah kn di buat nie... OMG, I think thats why I've been moody lately. Nada kn dibuat, game online udah buring..., ps3 game nada game baru...., tv mcm biasa...., drumming..ok plg...at least this week ada mengaji lagi. Routine stuff... Bored...

I guess 2 months of doing fun stuff wore off.. Howell kn baca Archie ._.

4.50am o.O

2010-02-01T04:47:00.006+08:00

Its that early already. Inda terasa ah, I think its because I sleep through out the monring till late afternoon kali. I think? HAH! Its definitely the reason why! -.-
Entah, my sleeping seems to be opposite again. I find it more pleasent sleeping at like 7-8am till... afternoon.

It seems calming, with the everlast slow morning shine through my window & with blue skies. My curtain is always half open so it can shine in light. x) I tell you, its just pleasent. What a way to wake up or in my case sleep, when the window drips of water droplets due to condense temperature inside out. I'm going to miss this so much when school starts.

Damn alarms, forcing to wake up, grumpy mood, getting ready. Arrgghh! Woah, I think I have a thing with waking up in the morning. ANYHOO....

Arsenal lost despite their many chances! They seriously need a solid forward. x.x But then again, I can't hate ManU too, since they played awesomely! Damn Nani, I knew he was always good but hardly put in the game & look what happen, he rules the day! Its suppose to be his GOAL >=O
Park, also my personal fav is forward where he should be & nah kn goal!

Chattering about football? Yeah, its rare. But I'm a dude, football is in most male's blood. I'm just not a fanatic. But judging by that post, it seems I'm! o.O Hehe, nada eyh. Its just a big match
worth mentioning. Like upcoming Chelsea vs Arsenal next week. I dont want to bore you non- footballers people reading this blog would I. Esp the girls. ;D

This will be my update for yesterday & I got some pictures, nada banyak.

Sedih sulnya! Nonetheless cute! x)
Damn red eye...

Mana gigi! =B

Pipi chubby!

Anak Cina! gagaga!

LOL!
Rambut bekas baru bangun. You'll see me bold when I come back from Umrah.

Good Morning Brunei.
Start your day with a smile.

Really?

2010-01-29T02:12:00.003+08:00

Wah, selama 5 hari saya tidak meng-update. That long. Man, I really lost track of time. Sorry about that. I though it was like 2 days, I didnt update. x(
Atu banar! Its all the result msg thingy's fault. Panic-kn urang saja.

I cant help but think about the msg. x.x Sekajab check mob, bawa2 mob with me lagi tue. My mob have been quiet & is always left somewhere in the house. But now its like 24hr beside me. I really cant help it. It should be awhile but really, i cant help it. =O

Anyhoo, update sikit sja nie. Owh & Happy Belated Birthday to my syg bestie Rachelle Lim! To the cute one Sarah Jane Ward, Sexy man Wilson. If kamu baca jua lh ah.

& today happy Birthday to the sweet one Aime Veniece. =')
I really miss spending time with you friend.

Enjoy, people.

Maaaaaaaaaaaah!

2010-01-24T23:51:00.003+08:00

My, I've seem to injure my back. >=O I'm injury & sickness prone this starting new year. Lack of excercise is the cause of it. -.-

So, this back pain where, when you are at an acute position, it'll stab like shit! Pardon my swearing. But it is fucking excruiating! Got it masa shopping arah Kuilap, carrying a big quite heavy load. Snap, my back was locked. Baik jua inda show, control macho arah kadai! HAHAHAH! Barigali!

It was yesterday btw, where I also had a family function. It was a great day plg, just the back problem. It seems like in every family gathering, I have a misfortune of some injuries. I'm still coughing/sneezing, & the fuck thing is that it hurts my back. -.- I should stop swearing now. =O
Angkat2 Sarah lagi, but it was fine. Cute ah Sarah yesterday, but too bad I didnt take pictures. Pictures with them girl cuzn's.

Result at 25th? I dont think so. Well yeah keluar, but in Brunei delay tue eyh. Still have 2 week solid. I HOPE. Not that I dont want to know, but I want to result to come out late. ._. So I can start form 6 (Amin!) On time.

Last thing, BANYAK drama arh rumah. Makes me sick to my stomach. Act your age man! Jgn setaie ani wah.

Owh & have anyone tried eating belachan (lurus kh tue) Sampai menagis! LMAO! I just did, few moments ago. NYAMAN yo, (au, ada antie lagi!) ;D Who can resist, Nasi Lemak with belachan sepadas padasnya, with tempe, tender ayam goreng, timun & with kerupok! o.O
I 'Literaly' have tears from my eyes falling, & sweat falling down from my face while eating! It was freaking hilarious! But its worth it!

So back to my curl fetal position to ease this back ache of mine.
Sakit pautku....

Chow, people ;D

Pleasent Friday.

2010-01-22T15:26:00.003+08:00

Its so calming today, don't you think. =)

The weather is just right, airconed room, music surrounds my room & peaceful bright cloudy sky out my window. I feel different today. I'm not sure in what way, but i just do. Sarah pun ada, MANJA banget! =B

I have not much to say. Just updating since I did'nt last night. Owh, I went through past series of old letters, magazines, birthday notes, look through old photos. It made so sadden & at the same time enticing that I ever get to have those letters/moments. The BNM sweet picture frame made for me with heart felt words, the teddy Fatin gave me, the picture Syah also made for me, Niks valentine note, Syaza's sweet birthday card which still sings, Rachelle's funny quotes about me. Made me smile to the max. =') Well to name a few ;P

I really do appreciate them...
I Love'em.
I Love Kamu, who I call my friends.

Sudden, Well dare I say it -.-
I miss school with you guys in it...

I'll stop here. Drumming jap.

I Know I can...

2010-01-20T21:56:00.003+08:00

I didn't have a nice sleep today, akhir tidor, woke up time to time. Today I went to take my driver's written test again. I know right, again! I Failed at the last one. 1st 15 question must be 15/15 & the rest can have at least 7 mistakes. 45 questions btw. Its mcq too. Easy to get mistake, its soooo... yeah.

Owh & the class this time was awesome, I know someone there attracted my attention! Big time! She is from MS, form 6 kali. Not sure. She is gorgeous! x_x & some others.. xD

Anyhoo, I'm damn tired today. Lack of rest & boredom doing hunts. Err referring to online game. >.<>.> Did'nt get to drive home too, today. So that spoil my mood. Well no actually, I fell asleep anyways during my long journey home. But once you wake up from the car, you get all grumpy. Yeah, who does'nt.

About to find a movie to watch, but I exhausted all my piles of Dvd's & series to watch. My, am I feeling the borederm of holiday now! Naw, I still got my ps3 to play. Got to fill my time! So chiooaa for now. =)

Have a pleasent night.
Seacrest out! -.-'

Wait! A Laugh from you, will please me!

2010-01-19T23:21:00.002+08:00

1st one is just EPIC FAIL! xD

3rd One is just PWNage! ;P

Enjoy.

Fireflies Acapella. Its just awesome!

2010-01-19T23:10:00.000+08:00

Long Over Dued.

2010-01-19T22:35:00.003+08:00

Its been too long. I just felt in need to write once again. I miss it but I'm afraid that I've lost it. Another reason being that I don't want to go starting a new school with dumbfound words & crooked english. I've need alot of polishing. I'm not sad, depressed, or anything, in fact i just wanted to excercise the brain. =)

So what's been up at a new year you might say, to people I haven't made contacts in real life nor fb o.O Well really I'm just fine. I must say that, I've been unhealthy for quite awhile now. I'm feeling much better today. I can hear again. =O

Yeah, I've been deaf on the right ear for about a week now, or make it 2 weeks >.< I finally got better just today & thanks to the internet, finding solution to get my hearing back. This one manuevuer which helped me which I forgot the named cured me. x) Its where you pinch your nose, than hold your breath. I guess it works on plugged ear too.

Err anyway, besides that, my licenses is taking REAL slowly, I thought it was like a 2 weeks prosedure. We don't have guidance, i thinks thats why its taking so long. I advise for people who wants to take their licenses, do take the written test like really really early. It'll safe you time. -.-
Its true, I haven't been chatting, fb-ing or anything related to socializing. But I guess, I like it that way. Well does not hurt to miss or be missed. No doubt. :D

I guess that will come when I start school. Which I don't want to be late for, since I'm going to go Umrah, next month on 18th. It worries me that I might be late & ketinggalan dengan orang2 sakai bru ke form 6! I dont want to miss that. >.< Beside that... Hrmm if people don't want to hear anything about 'Result' Should stop here & naooo!

Ok, carry on. Not wanting to remind people that result is coming soon. But I'm very curious what I got. Scared?Hell yeah =O Heard it was coming out on 25th lh, 28th lh.... during this month. Isn't that quite early? I mean I don't want to miss my 1st day of form 6 as I mentioned earlier ._. (If I get in that is...)

I've written quite enough for today. I'll point out that I miss you, you & you. =O Very much.
Signing off. I'll stay connected to blog. =B

Ps. Sorry Aime, I change the layout without your knowledge. The bear is still there though. >;)

Ehem

2009-12-10T03:20:00.002+08:00

I know I have a tumblr & wouldnt want to write here. But, I have an urge to write here. I guess i do miss this blog, reading what I've wrote here feels connected somehow. Maybe its the atmosphere where I feel familiar & comfortable to write instead of the modern tumblr. Nothing against it.

Anyhoooo, I promised to girl that I would update soon. & yes, she has been patient & I owe her anyways. But I do not know if it will be long, let my half awake brain & wondering urge hand do the work aye.

I havent slept at right terms meaning to say I've been nocturnal, proper sleep is rare even though its holiday. Why, just yesterday yesterday, Hafizu slept over & we did not sleep the whole day until morning. It was an awesome day btw, going to music crib studio watching them record & watched New Moon after that. Which btw gives me an insider of that movie. Its really just about the 'Hot' people. It was alright not a big fan but the people do atract me. Roar Ashley Green! Anyhoo, craving for pizza bbq chicken & in need to watch Ninja Assassin! Yeah, very random indeed.

I really miss this feeling I have. Its been quiet, no biggie for me though, entertainment is everywhere in my house, let me outdoor, indoor?, gaming, internet gaming, ps3 internet gaming, watching, excercising, eating.... & day dreaming. Oppps too much detail but indeed, I miss having the thought of having a person who cares & makes you laugh right there with you at most times. I'm a loving person but where I direct my love is very large, you know! Its quiet lifeless now.

Wait. I'm darn sleepy. I'll be back! =B

Maaaaah!

2009-11-02T22:19:00.001+08:00

Temporarily, this will be my dairy.

I'll be at Tumblr. ;D

Say What

2009-10-18T02:41:00.002+08:00

My my, look at that, I decided to blog today. Hello & morning, ocassionally visitors.

Its so out of the blues, so take note, it'll be random! Its 2.42am, I was about to sleep after putting my brain in a dreadlock mode of studies. 60 blistering, mind blowing questions & reading in between worked a sweat in my brain.

Its so dark now, with no light except for the laptop & a lamp couple meters away. No wonder my eyes are damaged in an instance! But weird thing is, I dont do anything about it. The atmosphere is cold, but for some reason iam sweating inside my shirt, too darn annoying. -.-

I ate shepperd's pie few hours ago, I guess that's why iam still awake. Though i know iam suppose to be asleep by now, I could not help but browse through the net & listening to hardcore music... scratch that, soothing emo music! HAH! --'

With many thoughts in my head, I just couldnt help but to have a session of day dreams since this morning. Iam just that bored? I have restricted in playing games, going to the net, contact-ing with them friends, doing what makes me feel alive (at some point!). So i really cant help it but fantasies of what i wish to do! x.x

I miss handful of people right now. I miss the raya hangouts? This is so contradicting to what I said earlier that I despise Raya. But its pleasent nonetheless this year. I miss you guys already & its been just a week after that day. Once again, I recall 'Form 5' is an awesome batch this year. =')

Hell, Monday is the start of my exam! (Random right!) So i calculated that my climax of the exam will be the 1st & 2nd week of the exam where I will come across stress! Since I know i'll stress it out! Iam not making any sense am I! & last 2 weeks will be a breeze? Hopefully! Yeah, my exam lasts for 5 weeks.

Pmb-ians, are well on their way to holiday mood. How I envy them. Which reminds me of the thought of flying my way to Singapore 2 days after the exams! YEAH BABY~ & this is where one of my day dream takes place. Bring-ing a fellow friend there! A girl to be exact. Well, that wont happen anytime soon.

I guess i'll turn into my sub consious now, I'll need the brain power of a CPU to conquer another 80 questions! My goal? I guess so! Wish me luck.

It might be another week when I'll return. Its a 1 week blog delimma, I guess! ;D
Good Luck to All who is having exams.

I'll leave you with an inspiring quote. It helped me.

'Knowing is not enough; we must apply.'
'Willing is not enough; we must do.'
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Minor Thoughts

2009-09-17T06:01:00.004+08:00

Dear Readers, (If they are any left)

Its been awhile. It was official that my blog was dead. But I was reading some post & it got me inspired to write. Well, I do miss the fact that I do not blog as much, but we are in entitle to have our freedom away from the internet. Its not working though.

Yes, indeed our mock are over, forever! What a thought of joy, but come to think of it, knowing that we would not have it anymore, well, saddens me? Yeah, I think I'm weird. I think due to the fact that we are going to a new stage in life. Our reign in high school is coming to an end. Hopefully.

I enjoyed being in elementary, but high school is just something else. College? Sure I'm looking forward to it. But I know, I'll miss my high school days, especially the amazing people I've met & of course the wonderful moments that took place. Face it, what is school without them. Sure, my school is a control & rule freak & has funny management etc , honestly speaking. But I'm still thankful, It can be considered as a second home.

My point being is that, do not overlook what life has to offer. 'Kids wish to become adults, adult wish to be in their glory years'. We often overlook these. Sure, you heard that phrase plenty of times. My prespective in live is to be cautious yet optimistic yet faithful & thankful too. That's how I'm raised. To have greater principle of knowledge & patience is where I walk on, but at the same time to rock \m/

I'm mold this way not by chance, but by my surroundings, namely; my family, my friends, my experiences, let it be good or bad. I've learn my mistakes. I'm proud to what I've grown to. I'm Thankful.

Sure my post seemingly have meaningless statement but hey, isnt that what expressing writing is about. I'm sure I'll rant more about school anytime soon now & hopefully stay in one topic, okay. Till then.

Sincere Arif Nayan.

Ripped Away.

2009-09-03T15:28:00.002+08:00

Do you know how it felt like to give it your all, & at the end it was taken away, just like that. Well yeah, probably most people go through that. & here i was an idiot to think it was going well to a point it might be grow into something beautiful. But some people are just harsh.

No wonder the word 'Love' is spoilt. Ahhhhhh! After all i've been through this year is fucking tough! Is like my dad's death wasnt enough. Now it just push me off to my brink existence. It fucking sucks maaa.

Ah my god, I just feel like spinning an animal head's 360 until it ripped off! LOL! Naw, I wouldnt do such thing. Though my drums took most my hits! But its all good, I guess thats why I love drums.

Iam too hyper or too depressed too much this week. I guess thats what i get for loving someone too much. Thank god, I aint going insane, I think >.<

But I still have them friends. =')
School is coming to an end my dear form 5's.
Lets kick ass! \w/ Screw love life!

Sorry lh if ada yg terasa.

End.

The Smile On Your Face.

2009-08-23T05:44:00.004+08:00

Is without a fact that her face reminds me of a warm feeling inside,
Without a doubt that her smile shine me,
Is prove that her existence is enough to make me whole,

I Love You Aime.
Raaaaawwwwr~

Back in 2008.

A Good Morning Post for you love.

I know how much you love sunflowers,
So here, a field of 'em with b-e-a-u-tiful clouds just for you.
xD

Good Morning Love.

im going to sleep now

2009-08-23T00:40:00.002+08:00

Hi! I’m back again! I guess my yesterday’s post isn’t my last post after all. I just got to tell you what happened today! I’ll do it in numbers so it would be a lot easier for you to identify if it was a good or a bad day. Because I can’t really tell!

You know what? Maybe not. I just don’t think it’s an appropriate post for a time like this – Puasa. I feel like I’m half malay! I don’t do fasting though but I do wake up at 4 in the morning for my calls haha.

Oh and look what Ella did to me …

She ironed my hair! I was all no-no at first and I don’t know what made me agreed to her. It was ticklish. I’m just very sensitive like that, okay! I remember, when I went to the saloon to get my hair trimmed, I couldn’t stop laughing. The woman even asked me ‘Are you okay?’ because I giggled every time she touches my hair. I love going to the saloon though.

I have been told that it’s not okay to talk about chow during puasa. Also, they said that people who are fasting are not allowed to pick their nose. But what if it’s really itchy and you couldn’t stand it anymore? Will it be okay if some one else does it for you?

Nothing, just a wonder.

Good morning, everyone! I’m listening to Savage Garden now ...

I'll be your dream I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love, be everything that you need.
I'll love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do...

Such a corny song. Reminds me of Arif :P

The Early Mornings.

2009-08-22T05:22:00.006+08:00

How awesome it is to have puasa once again. I recently liked it, yeah recently! xD Well now i adore the month of puasa. Anyhoo today sahur was unusual, I think the fact that my dad does not wake me up like he used too makes it empty. But it has positive effects too, we prepare, we eat, we clean, we pray together. =)

Insyallah that we'll still do this routine this puasa.

Sahur mornings are fine, especially getting to hear a certain girls voice in the mornings. Err, that in a way sounds scary. Well at least not this girl, though she occassionaly go 'uuugrrrrr' but that itself is so cute & what goes after that is 'Ariiiiiiiif'! (is between her & I really, I know the others are blur now! xD)

Yeah i'll stop here for now.

My sunflower, My inspiration, My love. =)

Ps. I know its not much, but its something.
Good Morning people. Have a great puasa people! xD

Ps.2, Love make sure you study for your upcoming exam~ x)
Have a great day love.

I L-o-v-e Y-o-u Love! =)

i want some hunburger

2009-08-21T22:59:00.001+08:00

Puasa starts tomorrow, my second assessments start this coming Tuesday and Arif’s mock is in the next couple of weeks. I guess this post will be the last one I’d be posting for the next few weeks because I’m done sorting my files (FINALLY! And the amazing thing is that, it only took me one day!) meaning I don’t have to spend most of my afternoon in front of the computer and I also need to shove myself in my books for my upcoming exams.

I don’t have much to say. And yes, you are saved by my very unproductive day. But I do have one thing. Did you know that I’m in love? It’s this guy who loves to pout.

If you get to see him anytime soon, please let him now I miss him terribly.

Ooo, It's Me

2009-08-21T02:04:00.001+08:00

I’m in my Barbie night gown with my Yakult bottle while listening to Tracy Chapman and sorting my computer files at the same time. I know, I know, I must be looking horrible right now with my Barbie night gown that I had since I was 7 (Yeah! It still fits me!). But I always look horrible! So it’s no surprise, really.

I remember I made a post saying Tracy Chapman is a man. But she’s a woman! She’s a woman who makes great songs who owns an awesome website! I’ve always wondered how they made her website. And I came to a conclusion that they did it by … magic. Yup, magic. I’ll say it again, ma-gic. Magic like Magic Johnson who played for the Los Angeles Lakers of the NBA! One of the best players of all time.

Lets sing!

Let me be the one who calls you baby, all the time
Surely you can take some comfort, knowing that you're mine
Just hold me tight, lay by my side
And let me be the one who calls you baby, all the time

I found my place, in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out and smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you, would you smother me?

I didn’t get to go to the clinic last Wednesday so I was kind of upset because I was really looking forward for some news. Well anyways, we did go around Kiulap and Gadong to look for a pet but first, trying to make up our mind if we should get either get a rabbit or a fish.

I wanted to get a rabbit but I don’t think I can handle that. I’m not really a pet-person, you see. That doesn’t mean I don’t like animals because I do! I love animals. I’m just … scared. They have teeth, okay! There are possibilities of me getting bitten. So I said that we should get a fish instead. A Goldfish. To be precise, a Bubble Eye Goldfish! They look something like this ...

Isn’t it cute?! There's another fish that I saw that has a bulgy belly with huge cheeks but I couldn't remember the name of it. I still think this is better looking though. I'm going to buy one this Monday!

Do you ever wonder why I am here? Well, I do. And all I could really recall is Arif saying that he needs something to make him blog again. And before that I said, ‘Lets change your blog layout.’ But before that I asked, ‘Why don’t you blog anymore?’ Yeah, that’s how I got stuck in here.

I tried blogging in my blog but I realized that I couldn’t blog without a picture to post with it. So maybe, when I am trough sorting my files – which I think would take a long, long time because I’ve been sorting it since God knows when and until now, I’m still not done with it yet – then I’d start posting regularly again.

It's two in the morning! Not everyone is sleeping but I'm sleepy so I'll be going now. Good Night everyone! Don't let Ella bite!

This is Aime! Again!

Yeah, yeah, yeah

2009-08-18T20:18:00.000+08:00

Today, I came to school with a hole on my sock. I was in a hurry this morning that I didn’t even realize it until Mr. Bright said that we were going to have a test. I took off my shoes (it’s what I always do whenever we have economics test – it helps me write the answer properly. Don’t ask why) and saw my big toe naked. I was whoa when I saw it but I didn’t really care. Yeah, I finished my economics test without my shoes on.

Nothing much happened today. I went to school, I wasn’t late, I had my physics class, my economics test, recess with Arif, computer test, art class and I did 8 questions for Geography while listening to Ella’s rants.

Never in my life have I been more sure,
So come on up to me and close the door.
Nobody's made me feel this way before;
You're everything I wanted and more.

Balisong has been playing in my iTunes on repeat for days and even until now. It’s in my head and I tend to sing it every where I go.

I’m kind of excited for tomorrow because it’s Wednesday, a tuition day, and the fact that tomorrow’s the 2nd appointment to the doctor! I need to scream –

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh! AAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHH! OOOOO … EEEEEEEEE … AAAAAAAAAA …. aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhHH!

I’m waiting for my dinner to arrive and I don’t think I’ll be having it any time soon. There’s a rumble in my tummy! Hear it? I want to eat. I feel like I haven’t eaten for a year! I had a terrible, terrible gastric few weeks ago and the only thing I could eat are bunches of leaves, cut into pieces then threw in a bowl with pepper. I actually felt two kilograms lighter a week after but lately, with all these food cravings and cheesecake and ice-cream yesterday, I think I’m gaining it back again.

Anyways! Arif’s on! LATER!! OR NEXT TIME!!

Look, I found something too!

My Inspiration You Are...

2009-08-15T17:40:00.000+08:00

Once again, Iam blogging. Though it'll be at random times & not daily!(yet) First glance of my blog, I want to thank you, Aime for the wonderful job rearranging my blog & for leaving me post. It made blog anew, with the cute warriorawr bear you bestow on it! Not only that but she saved me for so many times that I felt in debt to her. Dont worry, I know how to return a favour. =')

My current situation is indeed dier, I will sooner or later face my challenge, that is facing my O'Levels & still too lazy to study. But not only that, what I thought wont happen, happened. Sorry that I have to mention it again, Iam not over it yet. Just too remind people that, unexpected things can happen. But then again, I also was blessed by the likes of friendship.

A friend, who I came to love in the end. Who was just there right by my side all the time & talked randomly & unstopable-ly? =) But that dont annoy me, instead put a smile on my face. She is my warmth on my cold days, my saviour at my darkess moments, my peanut butter & jelly? Seriously, Iam just that corny. ;D She is afterall my inspiration. =')

I love you friend.

& that concludes it for now. That actually took very long! I was thinking of too much crappy things & do not want to talk crap.

I am missing you too.

what would you do?

2009-08-14T23:54:00.000+08:00

Dear honey in my popcorn, the ice cream in a sunny day and the man who called my mama hot,

You know there’s a beginning for everything. And your beginning is now. This right here is yours. Take it with both hands and show to the world that you’re as fierce – yet cuddly – as that warriorawr bear on the top of your blog!

You’re going to say “Ar will eat you” to every little complication you face in the near future because you da Bear! And you know that after every uphill struggle, every mess, just as long as you know how to get back up again, you’ll find something new. Maybe, something even better. That’s what you did to me. And I’m very much grateful for that.

I can’t be corny and sentimental all the way, okay?! I’m not a guy! I’m a woman! With manly hormones! And you’re a man who’s going to start blogging because I just gave you a kick for that. Do you like it? I changed the colour in a lighter composition just so you’ll feel like I have opened the blinds of your window lalalalalalala haha.

With lots of love, every little stars on your sky during the night and a sunshine for your tomorrow,

Aime!

You have a better EEE than I do! But okay, I love you! :D

Thank You In Order

2009-06-20T15:24:00.000+08:00

I would like to Thank my supporting family especially my friends with their msgs, symphaty & to the one who came & visit me at home. I cant Thank You, my friends enough. Thanks to your msgs which lift me up & made me smile. Thanks for all your loves & symphaty. I have great caring friends. I love you guys. =')

Thanks for the people who stood up with me all night/morning when I was in the hospital. Thanks for people who blog/post about my lost. Thanks for the people who msged me. Really you really helped me with the care you guys give me at my times of need.

I'll try my best to maintain my sanity. Its all thanks to you guys. =')

Its Fact...

2009-06-20T14:52:00.000+08:00

My dearly beloved father have just passed away on 18.06.09, around 1.30 in the morning.
To have lose someone so close, Its a total heartache, But what Iam relieve of is my father wont feel no pain nor suffering anymore. But with a price.

He has brought up 4 wonderful children, He fend & support the family. He grew us up with respect, patience, dignity, honor, kindness & love.

But what I feel sad for is that I didnt, we didnt get to say goodbye nor apologize. We only get to whisper in his ears at the last moment though we know he was unconssious. I could not help but cry when I heard he was in critical. We, as a family shed our tears as we have nothing else to do to help.

So we stood waiting, hearing the dreaded monitor, watched my father have 2 heart failure which bought a little time. Till the meds didnt work & we have nothing to do but to pull out my father's life support. Then the monitor sound came to stop....

If only I could turn back time, I would not change what will be happen since there is no way changing the outcome rather to spend all my time with my father & took care of him even longer & be the son he wants be to be.

Till now, I just cant shake of what has happen...

2009-06-17T15:32:00.000+08:00

.... Sleep whilst hanging on life support, though my dad is now hooked on machines keeping him breathe steadily. Still unconssious, n breathing heavily on his sleep, makes me sad but i knw its saving him instead seeing him in pain, it makes me thankful tht he is not feeling his pain. I'll cont on tne comp soon. I'll just be patient a little longer.

Father

2009-06-17T15:17:00.000+08:00

Hey all, blogging through hospital. Its been 1 month tht my dad was sick. To say the least his old diesease came back, where once he lost his leg bone due to this infection. Now it has gotten to the arms, making my dad weak & fell ill. He actually collapsed yesterday. I never saw my dad so weak before. Went to emergency just to find out tht his bp is way low & lower than tht he could of..... As soon he was feeling better his infection in his bone spread. An infected his lungs. The worst sight of,my life seeing my dad gasping for air. Plus he felt so weak. Each gasp he took as was like his last breathe. I cant stand my dad, looking at his condition like this. My vfamikly arnd my dad, went silent with tears reaching its limit. So then there was no other way then let my dad sleep

Let The Hour Glass Passes

2009-06-15T20:33:00.000+08:00

Bloggers log, things are not what it seem to be. It seems to be too quiet, to not having the people who keeps you smile or literally make you sane everyday. Due to the fact I need my rest, I tend to doze or laze around at any moment. Thats distrubing, I dont want to waste my time sleeping, but I cant help it.

The holiday I planned, seems to dwindle because of no avail, but what the heck its still the starting few days of holiday, I want it to go slow sailing yet be a meaningful holiday. So as you out there.

I really have nothing much to say, I think. My thoughts have been filled with crap & goals. So far so good I must say. (=

There, a little update for y'all.
Have a pleasent holiday! (=

Pictures that last a life time

2009-06-13T23:31:00.000+08:00

Mummeh~ & pretty waitress at the back! *Aissh! xD
Face to face lh lawaa! =B

Bday girl~ 26 udah~
x)

Main game nie! xP

The ladiess~

Bros~

Be-lated Bday Girl! x)

Errr! xD

Cara bazh posing! x)
Eseh isteri ah, model nie!

Lookie camera! xD

Si isteri & si scandal! xD

awwww~

Syg! Blur ah! Lawa udah smile!
x.x

Org vain belakang! x)

Vintage look!

Cantiks, she is! (=

Eseeh~

Syaah~ Chel~ Errr~

Lawaa the pic! mcm kn kiss! HAHAHA!

Vain eyh! Cute lagi tue!
I meant Rachelle!

D girls~

The sipit mata! (nadadeh!) Lawa nah! & the elegant ^^

Ging! x)

Untuk shapa tue ah! ;D

Blur! x.x

Pooopoo looks adorable here! ^^

Org kontrol, org marung, org mabuk & org sakai!
Apaan! xD

Rachel looks drunk here! xD
Tpi cantik lh masih! ;P

Cuti at last!

2009-06-13T23:01:00.000+08:00

Hello kawan kawan! Lol! sounds like those kids shows! x.x

Hey people, woah its here! Holiday! Wohooo, some might not like it because it is boring but iam not one of them. I need my time, my dignity, my pride & my freedom! *takes deep breathe! Wah, i really need this! (=
I have few plans ahead that I can wait, beacuse i just want to take my time slowly, no need to rush. ^^

The point is, Iam glad holiday is here.

Owh I have a owed post for my BBBBBFL (Best Best Best Best Best Friend For Life) Woah, its true because she just means alot to me! (=
So my hyper aside! (*Dang red bull!)

I would like to wish my close friend Bazilah Binti Hj Besar for a happy belated (very!) 17th Birthday. I really cannot thank her enough to what she have given me, her love, her care, her lust, her loyalty & her yellowness! x) Its really her who actually give a damn about me! Which makes me feel guilty, that she helps me more than I give her attention. & what more is that Iam older to her, which Iam suppose to take care of her. Its one of her nature that makes her super special in my life.

Though the troubles & hard times we had, could we shed tears & fill an ocean, heartbreaking moments that hurts like 1000 needles poking on one's heart we still manage to be bestest of friends. That bond we have is what keeps me stronger. It made me learn, but if only if I can mend her broken heart, that will gladly give me a glad feeling, even the slightest feeling that I can make her happy will go a long way. The fun times, the laughter, the joy, the yellowness we had is worth living for. I'll always will treasure it, though how my memory keeps shrinking each day since we grow old.

(hrmmmm, my sentences is very errr somehow not understandable) xD

What more can I say, this girl is my angel...

I love you, my angel. (=